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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

hmms.super long nv blog lers.yesterday was the finals for c division...awwx.
ahs-cchms:44-47.i cried so badly lahs.sighs..
didnt finish the guys' match though...51-71...SIGHS.also lost..so disappointed.
today...hmms.mr yeow keep taking my stuff!arghs.take my scissors,want cut my hair.take my camera,take pix until no batt.lols.hes weird.
then had ndp training...hmms.went okay.but ms teo said i pulled my skirt when marching.I DIDNT lorhs.got so affected.sighs.i really dun remember pulling my skirt...then my spine hurt so badly i screamed lahs.then i was doing timing today..so embarassing hahax.i shout "check cut" when we werent supposed to.arghs.lols.made macaroni with mary chan...wahahax.then SCs keep talking about tonight's camp.lols.so fun liddat.went back with jasper,LK and YC.weetx~funny trip back=) i drank 90% of jasper's bubble tea!hahas.then met xiao berx.drag me to his friend's shop lols.

had np training.hmm.not bad.mr lee wasnt arnd.weetx~
then ii was going back home.

i cant believe it.
i stood there for a crazy 10minutes.
waiting for him to appear.
i knew he never would.
i missed him so much.
just after i talked to mr lee abt him.
how long has it been?
i still see his face every night.
and i cry.
because its just an illusion.
somehow i cant forget.
i want to.
but...
i just cant.

i love wsps-but actually arhx.do i know any p6 `o5 guys arhs.can only rmb a few hahas.
my dear didis:
ryan-ariel's bf
ryan-the scout
delton
shawn-joel's bro.

er,dunno if i rmb summore.hahas.owells.referring to the tag aniwaes.

founders day!saluted the VIP,then go to the gallery there...staring down at the students hahax.quite boring...then we sang "bless the school" as usual,emphasized "GAY".lol.choir sang SO well.and erms,band was nice=) CO was good too..
after that,we had NDP training at 2pm.sighs.valerie showed SERIOUS attitude.i mean,prissys really trying le lahs...rayseen isnt THAT bad..(yet?)
we've tried...ive tried talking to her nicely,in the end kena diao.if i was back in those times i woulda slapped her 24 times.dunno diao how many times.WE JUST WANT TO GET THROUGH NDP.
wanted to scream,cry,wadever.mr yeow didnt put pressure,mr lee just stood there,everybody didnt tell us how sucky we did.sheena saw us...she really....AHH.
zhaoxiang & aurelia gave feedback..wasnt good.it just...doesnt work this way.what happened to valerie anyway?she suddenly just...fcuked up.crapsomaniac.
then went back with lisa,megan,rachel,eugenia and wenyong.sheena disappeared.haha.went to whitesands..ate at magic wok.weetx.super nice=) met wenqi and alina and shiling..talked alot lahs..

had extra painful gastritis.ouchie.wanted to pon home ec..then mary chan wld rather die then let me go off.sighs.dun care la.got the jj lin cd!yay.tmls founders day.jiayous ahs~

i RAN to the stadium to watch CSS and AHS put up a good fight,giving some stupid excuse to mrs koh tt i HAD to go.in the end i watched some shitty stuff....attitude problem...89-17.crappo.then went for founders day training...salute seemed weird.awwx.and softball won compassvale!yay~~

I.GOT.THE.INITIAL.D.SOUNDTRACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks eric.

woke up and cleared up that tornado of a room.lol.
went shopping with weiyang wahahax.quite fun~~went like,rounds and rounds arnd CS and TM.bought sth for edmund FINALLY.hahas.weiyang cannot wear alot of colors lor...hahas.had a hard time.in the end took a last resort and bought 3 shirts=)
now im going who knows where to makan.weetts~

oya and i bought harry potter.YAY!

yutingjie's back from thailand!but cldnt talk to her..went to sch to train for NDP.weets~not THAT bad,but we banged really nice=)valerie showed attitude though.wasnt glad about tt.went to Cornerstone church and met a million friends lor...saw manfred and marvin!hahas.was really touched by everything..the pastor was SUPER funny lahs...compared to rev low...awwx.haha.then it was so sad....alot of pple cried..incldn zy and me.dunno why i cry oso..just cried.sighs.
then went for dinner at AJISEN with jollin,serene(is it serene?),megan,cherine and justina.wahahax.vv fun=) didnt end up going with alex,kenneth or junkai.oya i saw jiajian lol.wonder if joel went.met jasmine...shes really nice=)
went to chuanjies hse...found out hanwei knows jeremy LOL.owells.

cheers to God.

i found my hw still at 2G!!!phew.then erms.had history...with a sexist teacher wahahax.jkjk...aniwaes.went for np training..OMG we did really well compared to last time...im SO going to put my whole heart into NP!i gotta get my lance corporal....W/O the road safety badge.then found out bad news...sighs.sjab pple kena tio by another sch.sighs.

wasnt expressions at assembly today..english drama stuff and er,the Sonicfest stuff.seems really nice..then g0rt invited to One Big Day again.hahas.aniwaes...marychan wouldnt let us off.sighs.had to skip np.a little.then rushed to npcc...i really dunno if we can make it.weiye sir taught us stuff..thanks to him~wish npcc can improve...
then before going hme,ashley,sheena and eugenia were training with me again...then hahas.kena pranked by yicheng.went back with lk,yc,isabel and deric.then we finally talked after a LONG time...sighs.havent been to the 3rd floor for vv long lers.we talked about how to enjoy sec sch life...which im trying to.owells.im still...sorta dreaming of getting back into bball,which is SO impossible..well.np rox.ahhax=/

left my jay newspaper back arnd 2G there!inside got mary chans hw...die liao.

finally get to use the comp...been busy with npcc stuff.sighs...today went for the ndp briefing.hmms...saw tt juanjie guy..and especially for lisa,MINGWEI.hahax.had horrible news lahs...npcc gotta do alot of stuff..then we havent learnt.sighs.mr yeow was like,quite diaodiao derx...sad...i so darned scared i was gonna cry inside the room lor..then went for debate.arghs.lols...so long nv c joshua lers.
aniwaes...yesterday was the east view match..wonder who won...sighs.didi rox.and i met the junyuan 11 and 14 again!i KNOW them...i just dunno if they rmb me...after all it was one year ago..but 14 seems to rmb me...i didnt talk to 11 mahs.but i DEFINITELY rmb his blue hair extension.ahh...

i cant take it lahs.this is utterly...sighs.
i guess he was right.

You are the prisoner of your own conscience.
the fear trapped in you is locked till the day you set it free.
you are the judge of yourself.
you.decide your freedom.

my conscience is not free from fear.
fear of memories.
fear of faith.
im not letting go of them.
im still trapped,
never to be free.

i thought i opened up the darkest dungeon
the worst part of me
but i didnt.
i may cry,
but it wont help.
tears add on to my pain.
when the memories start flooding back.
just.because.of.
one photo.

wells.had NPCC bbq today...quite okay...laughed like siao when we told Jerald and Weiye tt we didnt have a bbq pit.wahahax.they were like,"WHAT?!?"hahas.
then we bbq-ed stuff...played Truth or Dare.asked alot,dared alot.engkiat sir came=) with gillian!shes pretty.hahas.but halfway through..some pangsehed and went to the beach lor.eugenia and i and shuyi were rather disgusted lahs.didnt show it though.
owells.i just hope tt NPCC really is Unit-ed.=/

hmms....ponned chinese running arnd the sch upper sec block looking for miss teo.wahahax.met glenn again.whaaaa...he talk soo much crap.wahahax.
hmms.was kinda shocked,scared today.jasper,chongrui and victor had a fight with nelson lorhs...in the toilet.then heng ar,xiang yang there to stop them.sighs.mr adrian these few days so bad mood...how to take the bball back from him?
had history with mr yeow...hes funny.wahahax.he was saying history was "HIS-STORY"and the girls went "AHEM,AHEM"hahax.
went for my FIRST lesson on Home Ec...with the FINE teacher-Mary Chan!walao ehs...nelson was so darn LUCKY to kena the home ec rep lor...his book arhs...wrap until nice nice liao...then mary chan was demonstrating how to detach the pages from the book.she say to nelson,"aww ure book wrap until so nice,i have to cut to show the class.u mind?"and there she goes.whips up a gigantic pair of scissors.and went MAD.cut here cut there,bend the book...all of us down there heart pain for the bk and nelson lor.hahax!even wanted to make funeral for the home ec book.wahahax!
then we went to english..second recess canceled!aww...then we were debating with mrs koh on ankle socks.she was saying,"we dont go against ankle socks u know...its just that the school goes with longer socks."so we went,"so everybody wear ankle lor!"then she say "aiyo...u know 10 years ago fashion was to wear long socks?now liddat...how to keep up with fashion?school lehs..." lols.she is SO nice to us.im glad she likes us=)
then it was er,founders day training.quite slack...but we got so much better in the end.jiayous!couldnt salute coz i was in half u...sianx.
then me,megan,rachel and sheena went to loyang point to buy the bbq stuff.we went supermarket and megan saw this bunch of crabs lor...she go pick up one and it moved lor!wahahax she practically threw the crab into the basket wahahax.
then found out sth REALLY surprising...it made me sit down at the chang cheng and think like mad.so impossible.
me and megan kena the NPCC treasurer at first...then we laugh laugh laugh coz we dun want the job.so we changed to secretary.awwx.we both wanted sec1 ic..
learnt alot of stuff today...yepps.one of my favourite days in AHS and 2oo5.cheers=)

go school...first lesson with benjamin tan.hes er,ok bahs...but i fell asleep during his lesson.aiyas...1A not used to him lors.then had to go meet mr khor again..sianzified.then went back with lihan.met bryan and mingxiang on the bus!so cool rites.
oya...reminds me.those two guys from Junyuan Sec.i rmb them lor...tt super tall no.11 with the blue hair extension...and the other one who kajiao me like siao derx.hed grown taller since the last time i saw him=) which was about,1year ago?dunno if he rmbs me...owell.too bad.

zhen lao shi was back today.awwx.didnt do her homework.owells.dun care le.then just because i shake my head,say i dunno how to solve the question,kana detention man.g0rt maths 1-on-1 with mr khor for the rest of the weeks...sighs.missed the coral match at fengshan,and missed the ahs vs bnss match too.then went back home with andrea...we talked lahs...i poured out alot of stuff...yarh.about all the pressure and stuff.

i want to quit;get away from it all.
they're coming.
im locked.
i cant run anymore.
its all over for me.

then andrea came up with a line i always used to tell pple....

"follow your heart."

went for sports day...sighs.backed out of cheering competition.so disappointed...not united.wanling even called the cheers lame lor.sheena and i almost cried at that point.lisa and sheena tried so hard lor..then i looked at the other ccas and zibei.when im feeling down,and im sick,and i happen to have REALLY fast competitors,i will lose.and i did.wow.
but it was better afterwards...it ENDED.and chinyee,lihan,isabel,yulin and i went to TM to celebrate cy's bdae in advance.went pizza hut...didnt eat la.drink soup.watch the rest eat.lol.no appetite.then saw ALOT of pple at TM.garfield,mervyn,and arnd 15+ ahs pple lor..went to take neoprint,then watch INITIAL D.WAHHHHHH...super duper nice~tt actress vv bad to jay...then lihan and i were like,"dun hurt my takumiiiii..."lol.then we cry when we see him cry.sobx.then i was watching the 1.45pm show...ended at arnd 3.40pm.hanwei called me and i found out he was coming~weetx.so i come out,meet him,and me and the serangoon sec guys go watch the 4.15pm show for INITIAL D.WHAAAAAA...love it so much.
gastric now...dun talk le.