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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

If I run away from you one day,
Would you please chase after me?
Ask me what is going on inside of me,
And make sure you will never let me be.

If I avoid you one day,
Would you please come after me?
Ask me why I am doing what I am doing,
And pray that I would be able to explain.

If I ignore you one day,
Would you please nudge me by the side?
Ask me what is wrong,
what is happening,
And tell me that everything will be alright.

If I shut you off one day,
Would you continue to pursue me?
I can't fight my feelings, don't even know how I feel,
But I know my love for you is real.

So if you ever find me running away from you;
Finding a place to hide,
getting out of your sight,
Please come after me and don’t let me be alone,
I might be confused,
But do remember that I love you.
Don't leave me by one side,
Waiting for you all night.

Just remember that even if you might not do all the things i said,


I would.


I love you.my querida.



-the above was from a Gina Yap.but i edited alotta stuff though=) its wonderful.

studied like siao today.
hmms.got to macdonalds' at 2pm,did ONE sum until 4pm.i got it wrong 1otimes,and would have continued if isabel didnt correct me 4times during that 1oth time.sighs.gone case.i dont want to retain...i want to quit school.wth.
FAILURE.
didnt get to see him..he was playing basketball.then he asked me continue studying.so..........read lor.lihan & bell were staring at me.sia la..heng.later they call him up and ask what happened.miss him so much lahs.then he playing bball now...aiyas.AIYAAS.dont.....AIYAA.watever.fuck it.


in a weird mood.

hmms.had a nice day i suppose.then after school went down to study with isabel and all...dunno whether LK angry at all.sighs.wish i stayed in the sports classes.but 1A's nice too=) just that i think i dont belong there bahs.definitely i see more smiles on myself in the companion of jasper they all.sighs.
wells went to the cc to study.he went to play bball.sighs.really wish he'd study.oman.here comes inspiration.new poem!haiish.rebecca&berdine are envious of me.coz andy really treats me so well.do i deserve such a good guy?sometimes i doubt so.but he must know.andy.w0rrHENaiiniie.

have you ever loved someone so much
you thought about him all day long
in school you wonder what he's doing
jumping about
getting scolded
sleeping.
and you wonder if he's thinking of you too.

it breaks your heart to see him go
just for one day
it tears you apart
just missing him.
and the thing is
he's right beside you.

when you sit by your computer
waiting for him to come online
which you wish he didnt
coz you want him to study.
you'll sacrifice anything just for him.

you jump at every single sms
and drop your phone when it isnt him.
you cant sms.
his phone's gone.

you look at his friendster profile 24/7
even without going online-you've memorized it.
you cry at every little part that changes inside.
the sweetest parts.

you cant imagine life without him
totally.
you've never felt like this before.
your previous relationship-
you thought you loved the guy so much.
now its 1o0times more.

when people call you a bitch
you might have cared.
but you dont anymore.
coz the only thing you might worry about is that they might link him to you.

you love him so much
yet you cant be sure if he does as much.
but you trust him
despite friends' doubts in him.
they mention anything,
you get worked up.

you dont know if he'll be gone
in this instant.
will another girl walk past?
naturally you'll trust him.
but the fear.

engulfs you.
it chokes.
sinks in with modern reality.
you sigh.

you love him more than your own life.
you'd do anything to be with him forever.
would you?


i would.

had such a hard time this morning.hahas.spent like,2 hours deciding where to go.tm...BORING.so we went to loyang with gerard and some guy,and played hide and seek with adrian.WAHAHAS.and hes angry with us now.owells.he wont be...for too long=) coz i gave him chengtng=))
then we went to berdine's house.yay.read books.the time spent there was really good lorhs.love it.went to swensens' afterwards with berdine rebecca and esther.weetx.yum!drank soup and coke.end of story.haha.fries oso...nv got to eat icecream.no$$.wahahas.then play ddr like siao...take neoprints like siao.wahh.nice.=)

well i had a great day.until i came back and saw her blog.wth la.bastard.
she better watch out for me....although she doesnt know it.
ive shouted outside the class before,and i'll go on.
just you watch.
think im just a bystander,cant do anything.
you bully my sista,you get it back1otimes.
nabei.kpkb to your boyfriend lahs.
and my sista kana.
what shit world is this la.
get dumped,still get blamed for being a person who doesnt like you.
she didnt do anything.
you were oversensitive.
or maybe not.
coz out there there ARE ppl who hate you.
and if you see any of their evidence,
dont blame it on my sista.
and PENGWEI.
knn la cb...ka ppl jiaowei.
bu yao ming arhs.
cb.
pengwei kia.what they get?
SLAP.
you want?
i doubt so.
have you tasted it before?
NO.
i have.
bitch.




*the above came out in a fit of anger....my dear true friends reading this.im not angry le.hahas.coz i have you guys arnd to stop me=)

why was rebecca and me thinking the same thing?well it may not be THAT identical...but...well.
does he know how much i love him?
does he know i care so much?
does he know whats going on?
does he know whats happening at my side?

i dont know.

all i know is that...



i love you more than anything in my life.

my pigg.
my pub0rr.
my la0g0ng.
my prince.

hmms...went out at 2pm and thought it was 12.awws.went to berdines hse...slept and went walking arnd red hse there...so far in!!!tired siahs...then go tm jump ddr.sb long nv go liaos.wahhs.so refreshed lorhs...
then went back meet xavier...lols.my new GANdidi.so cool=) then was trying to figure out where to put the stupid cigarettes.laughlaughlaugh...then i go back hm bathe eat and rush back meet joel, xavier,jeremy and andy.wah cb....tio screening by police...nb la.then i talk back WAHAHAS.take our names down *oh,forgot to bring ezlink*
diao ehs.heng nv check bag.so many things inside.cannot let mata see nia.owell.wtf.lantern festival summore.but its okayy.go playplay.andy goh PUBORR.wahahas.go chase arnd the whole park...lols.korkor help me summore=P

wo aii sii my prince=)

went to sentosa EARLY in the morning today..hahas.woke at 7am,then had to reach simei mrt by 8.went to meet lihan,michelle,eileen and wenxin.yay...go film video.take all the way to harbour front,got lost for like,15minutes,then go makan,then take cable car=)lols..had alot of fun..but the sentosa bus is really bumpy.so headache.didnt have much money either...so had to give up going to volcanoland,images of singapore and the luge ride.sighs.but we went to underwaterworld and cinemania.cool...hahas.walk here walk there quite fun...then take mrt from harbour front back home=) long ride but we sat on the floor.no space..hahas.yay...became closer to each other after this trip bahs...=)

back to school....HATE IT.really want to transfer...sighs.owell.things are getting nastier at school.had maths CA today...took the foolscap paper and started drawing.so im gonna get my first ZERO.hanrui daddy i need your help!!!sighs.i REALLY REALLY miss him.my table no space to write any more of his name lerr.SIGHS.sickening life.cant concentrate without him.then i saw ______ walking in the school...sighs.no reaction liddats.dunno wad to say to him oso.i just ran.im SORRY.then at macdonalds i met HER.WHYYYYY???????!!!!!????????
i got so flushed out i ran out of mac.im REALLY REALLY SORRY TO HER.sorry sorry sorry....he doesnt know how sorry i am though.he shldnt know bahs i guess.

wells.woke up REALLY early to a screaming mom,then went to TM with berdine to see shihan play basketball at the Converse 1 on 1.not bad..but he still lost.watching redeye with shihan,siying and andy and er,i dunno her name.then watch advertisement only then got call from -lalalala-.and -censored-

hmms.well i cried the whole evening.not because of that.but because andy was standing there looking at me with the puzzled look in his face.he was helpless,coz he didnt know anything.but he could understand.i couldnt hide it from him...

the fear.you will never know.how frightened we were today.

the windows closed.curtains drawn and clipped together.dumbbells waiting to drop on you,doors locked.handphone taken away,everything on you taken away.waiting for the spar.

='( no one will ever know.

i just keep jumping and singing and dancing around.why???lols.i feel so happy todayyy....
suppose i feel free finally.im glad.went with donovan,gerard,shihan,guojun and andy to the Converse 1 on 1 stuff...quite cool=) met jeremy, keith,gordon and -cant remember- there.hmmmmmm.then saw so many anglicans.all stare at me.was pretty dulan at first,but owells what can i do.let it spread then.my bad reputation~~for what the hell i dont know.owells.I DONT GIVE A CRAP!haha.
told ya i was in a weird,stupid,funny mood.wish im like this everyday.techno rox=)
then zhengzong and hanrui talked to me on msn.SO LONG NV CONTACT!!!miss them l0rts.
going chuanjie hse tonight watch Tale Of Two Sisters.cool=) i dont usually watch ghost shows.but WTH im not myself.AHHHHHHH im JUMPINGGGGG........=))))))


this has GOTTA be the best day of my life=)

ytd was a real busy day.tonned at rebeccas hse....made up some story...ended up writing a 3000 letter to andy.i guess i was crazy...well i am.after what labi said....i really feel worse than before....just dont want to let andy find out.its really my fault lahs..im sorry.really.
they've been trying to comfort me,saying its been 3years....but what i want to say is,"SO WHAT?"
but i cant.

im too...........deep.
i love him too much to stop myself.i cant stop myself lorhs.i mean,im not sad about anything much except this...we're really happy together yarhs.........and i dont want to bring this up in front of him.=/

well.i really love him.

let him off.
hes suffering in silence.
the truth cuts him in the face.
he has nothing.
dont punish him like that.
please.

firstday of the MISSING case.
a bad case of it.

gosh.gosh.save me.
what have i done....

world collapses at my feet.

hmms.went yuting hse..then run here run there.not gonna say y.owell.
then go watch movie with him.One More Chance.so nice lorhs.kept him irritated though=P kept saying "walao eh" all the time~~

hmms.didnt really do that well for compo.but i dunno y got so much "ling gan".haha.then brought my whole locker home wahahas.then andy called and told me to meet him at ws.siannx.wanted go bugis hahas.owell.then follow clarence they all go cc.guojun was there!!!almost cried lahs...missed him so much.hes really skinnier now.sighs.hmms.daryl dao me a million times=/ haha.hes a nasty baby.wahahas.