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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

didnt do anything today...just went to the cc to give eric plasters and just stayed there awhile..played a little..and watched them eat and went back.hmms.

miss him alot...
reality check-hes not missing me.
i love him still
no matter how much i hate him-
i love him.

hate him for doing all that.
but i love him and i want him to change.
hate him because hes not changing.
love him because i want him to lead a great life.


ohkays.thats all crap.fcukeduplife.

ehh.woke up late and went out to the cC.hmms.pokai's recovering.tts good.but hes going back to taiwan....forever.craps.
i owe him BIG TIME.
i made sure he looked after andy...and for that he got beaten up so badly.
im sorry pokai...
i guess he deserved it,not you.
and now you're going back to taiwan...i'll never see you again-
jonathan's mood was so bad;
basically you're the reason why we guys stay together.
now,
whats gonna happen to tuabapa0?
we cant separate;;

yeahs.and today i was a little crazy.
caused eric and the rest to stare at me as if i was some person who went absolutely haywire.
even i couldnt believe the words that were coming out of my mouth.gosh.
guess what i said.

"delete his photos.
im washing my hands of him."

and they were laughing their heads off on the bus.
"wah...okay..i ask him come down now,i take chair seh him see if you cry."

and i replied-

"seh lorh.i told you im washing my hands of him.i dont care anymore."

and they were like,"wahh....okay."and they laughed again.lols.

but the thing was,

i meant what i said.

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anyways.we reached downtown arcade..laughing at stuff.coz we were like,"pokais leaving Singapore...andy sure going to change derhs."
"wah,if he dun change,i tell you,he die ar.i come back find him LOL."
"wahhhh....pokai take aeroplane fly down straightaway nia."
"yalor i operate my own plane and land on the cC.hahah.whoops?"

yarhs i guess.he might change.as we all hope.but if he doesnt...well.good luck to him.but basically hes got his 21tiong.so whatever.

and basically the pain sank in later when andy came into the arcade.ehhs.the OTHER andy goh.lols.the sec 4 one.not the sec 1 one.
he came in and was like,"wheres andy?"
and i pointed to him.aiya geysiao abit wun die.
then he was like,"the OTHER andy.your andy."
and i went,"i dunno la."
and he laughed.
"gone liao worh...saw him with another girl that day nia."

gosh i buaytahan.andys nice but...ehh.not funny nia.
then i run to the toilet.

come out cannot find them,so wait for chris and justina lorhs.then we go mac...see them.aiyos.pangseh me.then sit down talk...and bona came walking out lols.he works there?gosh.he slack abit then run liao hahax.
then zaki came.
missed him alot from last time.
well..cool!
ehh.
then i go buy food,the stooooopid bona keep telling the guy,"dun take her order,dun take her order"
lols.pissed off me=x
then he ran back to the door and started shouting at customers."HEYA YOU ENJOY YOUR MEAL,COME BACK SOON AR!"
lols.and i was like,"shut up.lols."
then he say,"wahh u wait until i knock off.i tell you i KILL you ar."
and zaki came to the rescue...yay.
"ehh bona...no threatening in mcdonalds ar."
then bona grumble grumble.
"bonaaa...customer always right."and zaki winked.lols.cute guy man.

then walked past sakura see guojun...he looks good in the uniform lorhs.=)) and i went mad standing on the parapet waving frantically at him through the glass.lols.

yeahs.then the rest went jofris hse.and i went back with justina.yays.
met my dad at cC..and we go elias makan.see alotalot ppl nia.
WAH.tinesh.his hair is SO red.and i saw the er.dunno his name.aiya all the DDR pros down there.wahhhhs.so cool nia.
maniac 2player they can manage on their own..siao.i tell you i die man.gotta improve on ddr!but...sigh.

i wanna retire.
but i love ddr.
owells.

im gonna miss pokai...='(

went for NPCC after like,ponning 5 trainings?shh.
ehs.we were taken to BedokSouth Sec for swearing in*what a SIMPLE ceremony*birdshit la.
then had Games Day for NPCC Area 1o=)
it was....

SOCCER.

wow.and we were an all girls squad.
who probably never played soccer much.

and we were expected to beat really good GUYS.arghs.
penalty shots all the while...lost to every single school.AHH.

and we actually won Damai Sec at first.and I shot the stupiddd shot.wtf la.
the goalie went,
"i wasnt readyyyyyyy....'
WHAT?shit you la.you NODDED when the ref asked if you were ready.
and i had to shoot again.
WHAT?

and i missed the second one.ARGHS.

and i ALMOST hit the poor guy from BSSS.hahas.whoops.well i couldnt tahan la.
the BTSS and BGSS guys were taking photos of us when we got our shot!and i got freaked out.aiyos.

met khalil on the way back...sweet.im one head taller=x

then went with sheena and megan to cs eat.and got pangsehed by sheena.arggo.lols.so evil~~
hmm.then went ws meet my sis.
yay i ordered November's Chopin!!!

yay... by rights highlighting hair with megan and terry tml=) if shes not sick.

hmm.
come back here watch Snow Angel.remember sth bout it-

this is what xingfeng said-
"the nightmare thats been haunting me for 18years.
its reliving itself-
its repeating-
its happening all over again-
again i see him
slip away from my reach
and fall into the pit of darkness underneath.
will he ever forgive me for letting go?"

looks nice.he was talking about toro anyway~~or jiteng.but i like jijie more=)) gonna watch till the end-hope he and maqian get together=))


one last quote that i found REALLY swiit-

"pain,if it can heal,no matter how long it takes,its not pain at all."

blogger spoil liao arhs.all that ive written just now..all gone.crapps.

hmms.all i remember is what i wrote-

i just want to be your shadow;
never noticed by you;
but always by your side.
i want to be your cushion when you fall backwards;
to help you up after a fall.
i wont think of you loving me;
just me loving you.

woke up too late to send leon off...send shihan even oso too late.sighs.gdluck bahs guys...have a safe trip!enjoy yourselves...

sighs.been dreaming nonstop nowadays.all leave me waking up tearstreaked.sighs-
a problem solved,another arises.i know you're good to me-really.im grateful for that.
but i cant do it.
i cant take you as a substitute for him.
no matter what you say-
im not the type to do that.
im sorry-i cant do such a thing.

sighs-why...

i caused you to end up like that.sorry.i cant forgive myself.


finally went back to school.had flying fox at sch.sian.owells.then had the worst thunderstorm ever since my birthday.

went to the cC to solve the daiji...everyone helped me.really im REALLY thankful to all of you guys...came down specially just for me.thanks!

but he came....

he stood infront of me-blocked me from her.

why did he do this...

doesnt he know im doing all this for him?

when they wanted to settle the thing downstairs-i made sure he didnt come downstairs.
when they wanted to go up to solve the problem,i tried to get him to go-
let him go down to eat
to buy stuff to drink
to smoke
to wadever

just didnt want him to stay and look on.
to see me.

to get involved.


just why did he stand there and get involved?
doesnt he know i was practically begging eric and lester to ask him to go away?
when they shouted at him
he didnt care.
he didnt budge an inch.
i just wanted him to go-it wasnt any of his business.he didnt have to come.

i just wanted him to know-


i did what i did for you-

aiyos.die arhs.

i feel so guilty nehs.
he seems so alone at the cC sometimes-everybodys at my side talking...
dunno if tt's true...but i guess it is...sorta bahs.
sighs.
he shld be going out with her today...
hope he'll be happy.

wah i keep pretending im sick then pon schl...now im REALLY sick.awws.tts bad man...
gosh.gosh.

pray tt he wont smoke as much lers.
2nd hand smoke kills.

ehs.wad am i saying all this for.owells.

was talking to jae the whole morning...kept laughing at the computer.hahas.hmms.he's really nice=) now go see doc liaos.dun sick liaos.then can pei me chat on com everytime.=P
yarhs...basically really alotta ppl have helped me get through all this...yepp.

no chance to thank them...i'll hafta write at least one testimonial for each & every one of them-aiyaa.then the passers-by at my blog how nehs.

klahs.to those who's helped me in one way or another,even if it was just one line of words eg Justina-yepps.im thankful=)) thanks guys!im glad to have friends like you all=))

some stuff i wanted to say to you i guess.

"i didnt know.
im sorry.
i never knew...
how stupid i was.
now you're gone,
and i cant have you back.
i just sit here and wish.
ive cherished you from the start.
i always have.
the days we spent together
were my happiest;
in the hell of a life i had in 2oo5 so far.
all those times i said "i love you"
i meant it with every bit of my heart.
when you pushed me away
the hurt i felt was unbearable.
but i never knew you felt worse.
i betrayed your trust in me.
i know i did.
but i know one other thing-
i really want you back.


so i was only dreaming.
it was wishful thinking.
you love another girl.
it'll stay that way.
now i doubt you loved me at all
yet you say you have for 2years.
when I said "i love you"
i didnt say it for fun.
when i made those promises.
i knew i would fulfill them.
even if i had to sacrifice.
ive done so much,
only to gain so little.
if you didnt love me.
if you knew you would break up with me.
you shouldnt have asked me to stead.
because you know how long i cry for one.
you know how much i devote myself to someone.
you know it.
you know how much i love you.
and yet...
why must you do this to me.

now i dont want to blame you.
i just want you to lead the life that you've always wanted.
i was willing to change,
but you found another.
i respect your decision;
but that doesnt restrict me from crying;
from feeling hurt;
from feeling confused;
from..
from still loving you. "

i dont know what to do.

oh.i didnt post ytd.owells.ehs.wad did i do ytd.oya.meet pokai samuel desmond dennis junjie at downtown-we were supposed to go tm?gosh i wore JEANS.and we went to cC after that.omg.he got hit & i think he was bleeding at the mouth?omg....i remember how all the time for those 2years at the cC i would run over..but for the first time,ytd i sat there and just looked over..i really blame myself for not going over...but i knew if i went over i would cry all over again.and it would make him irritated?i dont want him to know anything actually.but i dont have the courage to delete anything from my friendster profiles.just now i was looking through his testimonials....and my hand was just trembling.wanted to delete the testimonials i wrote from august 12th to 6october.but just couldnt.
so i forced myself to sit there.but i dunno....how painful it was i really cant describe...but really.it hurt vv badly.then i took the chance...when everyone left and we were the only ones left in the cC..GOSH just how much courage it took to open my mouth,i dont know.i just mumbled a "are you okay?" and after he nodded i took off man.just ran.couldnt take it.
then ran across the road diagonally lols.and just stared at him go.
reminds me of that time justina saw me staring at him.....her words kinda helped me-thanks=)
yarhs.then at night had to entertain like,5ppl.gosh.was going crazy calling xavier,then junjie,then rebecca,then eric,then yijie-lols.kept me up the whole night.owells.

woke up early today.....*SHIT he came online.*

paiseh interruption.

erhs.yarh.then go bugis.shop with berdine and rebecca.okaes.
saw the other rebecca.supposed to meet labi jonathan pokai.then zeelia also there=) hmms.but they stayed at the arcade i think.and me berdine rebecca left for bugis street.owells.talked alot...took photos.ehs.yarhs.then spent like,1hour at tanahmerah mrt chatting waiting for beck's mom.

yepps...and i came back here~

ps.to whoever that person was,the and_cool_baby@hotmail.com guy.
pls...he's andY_cool_baby@hotmail.com.
and basically he doesnt use that email anymore.so......i guess.dont frame him.dont use his name..he's a nice guy...erms.i dont know why im saying this.okay forget it.

well...i saw denise's blog....she really brightened up my day...=) thanks so much=) you dont know how much those few words meant to me=) THANKS!

crap.cannot...i cant take it anymore.im really going to break down soon.just one more thing affecting me and im as good as dead.gosh seriously.i cant take anything else.

arghs.didnt manage to pon school today!sians.got caught mahs.then had to go...until 1pm.then i zao.phew~then go cc....where joey tried to be the middleman coz we both thought the other was made of glass*transparent!* sighs.i couldnt face the truth...i was just sitting there crying....while joey talked.he hits the point immediately.i guess he was really sad too...sighs.but i really blew up.i screamed "FUCK LA CB!!!"so loud the whole cc stared at me.omigosh...sorry...didnt mean it.but really.just looked at my calendar...its been 1week since we broke.and hell really broke loose.
couldnt bring myself to smile...brought down the others' moods.sorrie!well science shocked me a little,wow.7o...while the rest really killed me.fail fail fail.wth.owells.just pray he passes.
gosh.was in a siao mood.pple crash into me,cycle into me,i punch the wall kick the wall,i siao liao man.lols.know i shouldnt be torturing myself...*thanks jaeson* but really.physical pain really is better than mental pain.

wtf wtf wtf.why must all this happen?

he just came online....and his display pic's of a rainbow.omg why.why my phone the same thing.omg...
just feel like dying lahs.kaos.how to live on in this crap.shit.darn it.

woke up at 1.15pm....was staring at the clock like siao.then suddenly laugh.lols.im going siao.way siao.then on phone realised today got 1a gathering.diao.2pm meet summore.i go cc lahs.step inside only see him.and run out.cry finish go in,going to cry liao so i throw his shirt and ezlink at pokai ask him give him.and run.

runaway.....

then go find the rest at east coast.go there play...quite fun lahs.love my class.but i got SO dirty.play with sand and seawater.it hurt SO badly.i forgot my arms totally.then soaked them in the sea...hurt like shit.
then talked to lihan for arnd 1hour...thanks ma!i love you..

go meet pokai samuel junjie jonathan and joel at east coast mac.they're a great bunch.always by my side.....rawks.we talk cock then go parkway parade opp play bball.tt court nice to play nia.vv good.then was playing.....suddenly shihan called lorhs.dunno say wad la.i couldnt believe it then.andy bad mood.wow.thought he would be fucking happy after i was gone.i dun think i shld disturb him lorhs.after all this he definitely should be frustrated.my side here keep asking him wad happen...he surely sick of answering them.sighs.

but i got angry...sorry shihan.he wanted me to be out of his life.i went away.now he got stead.FINE.i wont say anything.i cant.coz who the fuck am i.but yet he blamed me for everything.AGAIN.
if he has no mood to play basketball.play halfway tell shihan sub.
if he has no mood to smoke.push away the cigarette.
if he has no mood to drink when shihan gave him beer.
if he looked like he was going to cry.

ITS MY FAULT??

andygohxiujun.should i be the one feeling so horrible?you have absolutely NO reason to feel this way.ure supposed to be happy with your stead.yet you feel this way.you have NO RIGHT to.because
YOU BROKE UP WITH ME FOR NO REASON
YOU DIDNT GIVE ANY FUCKING SORT OF EXPLANATION
YOU SENT NO SMSES AT ALL.
NONE.
YOU WERE THE ONE WHO BROKE.
COZ YOU HAD YOUR EYE SET ON ANOTHER GIRL
SO YOU DID THIS.

do you have ANY right to feel sad anots.any right not to smoke like u usually do,not to drink,not to be in the mood to play bball,any right to look like ure gonna cry anots.you felt you would be happier without me here.and yet you feel this way.
and still blame everything on me.

YOU KNOW I WENT TO SUNTEC YESTERDAY?
you didnt have to reply my messages ytd.coz i sent you those when i was SCARED.ALONE.because you knew how scared i was that time on september 11th.because you saw me cry that day.because i had to leave you with shihan in the cinema coz i had to go and DIE.for no fucking reason.september 11th REPEATED on the 16th of october.with a worse outcome.

you dont know how much my face,nose,and my head hurt.how much blood i left on the road of suntec city.i cant wait to go back and see them.
and you still hurt my heart so badly.yesterday.you go ask labi.he was with me when i was so scared.he knows what i said to him.at that lowest point.where ppl would fear for themselves,pity themselves for landing in this kinda situation-what was i thinking?
about YOU ANDY.you.i was afraid for you.i was afraid they might insult you.tell you.and get u all frustrated again.

everywhere i go i see you in my head.memories flood back.in the whole of pasir ris.
i go home.the times you sent me home when i dragged you back,coz you scared me so bad i didnt dare go back alone.the times we spent in the kitchen scaring each other.and laughing.coz you were torturing my hamster.my andy.laughing at my npcc photo.
i go to the cc.for 3years we've both been there playing basketball.theres too many memories there to describe.too many.
i go to loyang point.we ponned school and went there.to get caught by the aunties.i was there with you every sunday when you ponned tuition.
i go to whitesands.TOO MANY MEMORIES.at mcdonalds,at yakun,at the old arcade,at everywhere.
i go to whitesandsprimary.we spent 6years there.theres so many to describe .beautiful days.
i go around your block.playing with each other below your block.hiding at the 2nd floor just to watch you teach taekwondo.getting screened by the police during the lantern festival.
i go to the back gate bus stop.the place where you first kissed me.-fuck that-
i go to the overhead bridge.where i would always wait for you.
i go below rongfu's block.where we would say bye.
i go to my cousin's block.we couldnt separate on the second floor.turned around and counted 1,2,3.because we couldnt leave each other when we were looking at each other.turned around,counted 1,2,3.and didnt move.laughing,we tried again.this time we walked,but was jerked back.because you were holding my hand.so tightly.
i go to berdine's house.where we read stories in her room.where i told you to sit up and read coz i didnt want you to wear glasses and how you would listen to me and quickly sit up.while i lay down and read.where i would swing and talk to you.where i cried and thought so hard.and understood what you wanted then.we were the happiest here.we would spend hours talking to each other,asking where to go to hang out together.and in the end we would pick berdine's house.and be happy with our decision.
i go to rebecca's house.where we saw shihan go cold turkey.where we spent hours studying.where i taught you maths.where i would lie on your shoulder and sleep in the aircon.
i go to tampines.we spent all our holidays there.playing...watching movies.watching One More Chance.when we were supposed to be with yuting.
i go to suntec.our couple games.those times we spent at esplanade.running up and down escalators.spraying each other on christmas eve.walking in the middle of city link laughing.putting your hand around me for the first time.getting caught by my mom.walking to jasper's house at 2am in the morning.
i go to jaspers house.the times we played there.tonned together.watched movies together.going to 7-11 at 4am in the morning to eat noodles together.
i read my email.theres one you sent me in march.to comfort me when i broke with vincent.

theres so much more....i wish so much that you would be back.
but i also wish you would be happy.
and if that means you wont be with me...
i'll leave.

remember we always acted the same?you threw your paper halfway during the exam and stopped doing it.how come i did the same thing too.
we drew rainbows when we felt like it.and you told me tt u drew a rainbow,shocking me.because i drew one too.
even tmr.you're going to watch a movie at tm.guess what?im going too.whats happening.
we always said the same thing.
did the same things.
we even looked like each other.
i dont believe in coincedences.

i love you.this post contains everything ive always wanted to tell you.i couldnt tell you personally.i couldnt sms u this.so i wrote it here.but you arent gonna read this.coz you never go to my blog ever.but its okay.ive said what ive wanted to say.if you're really with aslieen.i dunno what to say.i really cant bring myself to wish you two good luck.i know its evil.not like my usual self who would wish you both goodluck,but im different now.i love you so bad i cant think of anything else.

this is for janson too,who wanted to read my blog so bad.=)gdnight.

whoa.went to cornerstone with joel...wells.quite little ppl today...and i cried as usual.but really i felt SO bad and guilty about going there.they were praising the Lord,and i couldnt bring myself to concentrate.was wondering what he was doing...turns out he was at the CC.okaes.....hope he enjoyed himself...
then told my mom some crap about class camp overnight and went to meet rebecca joel pokai junjie aloy & yuting at the "dinosaur"park.gosh.then go tonning at aloy auntie hse.YAY.play mahjong from 12+ to 7am lorhs.sibei song.then go inside room play the "niu nai wang" crap and laugh like siao.it was 4o% of my normal self i suppose.the other 6o% was fake.sighs.but nonetheless,it was a great day.

went to settle daiji at ngeeann.siao man.dunno how many ppl tio one poor guy.owells.wadever la.went to meet pokai samuel junjie labi they all....andy was there.sighs.i guess....i sat at the other end...going to cry...sighs.then all he did was treat me like i wasnt there.sighs.he really hates me now.im so confused..

stacie orrico.stuck.


every now and then when im all alone
wish that you would call me on the telephone
say you want me back but you never do
i feel like such a fool
theres nothin i can do
im so stressed over you

i cant take it what am i waiting for
my hearts still breakin
i miss you even more
i cant fake it the way i could before
i hate you but i love you i cant stop thinkin of you
its true im stuck on you




heard this again the day after we broke up.couldnt cry..my mom was driving.that day all the songs that were played reminded me of him.when i reached school....everything just came out again.berdine was right?i guess...

msn-

` LOVEableChild . o1o7o5 ` ` huiminAndkaiwen ]] <3 hiime dearr iieNOTgongOK. says:
uu already liked andy fwer 3years.
__w enx in` ]] `those fake smiles do good. they hide the pain in me. his name.engraved on my arm. says:
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` LOVEableChild . o1o7o5 ` ` huiminAndkaiwen ]] <3 hiime dearr iieNOTgongOK. says:
and wad u get is 1 month of relationship.?

i love him norhs.but if andy,if you hate me.i'll wont disturb you anymore....that msg might have been my last.i love you always.stay happy.

They gave us fall so deep in this thing called love
They gave us hope;
Made us the happiest living people on earth-
Before ripping out our hearts
And tearing them into little pieces.

Why did you have to love me so much-
Only to hurt me so much.
Why did you have to bring me to the giddy heights of heaven,
Only to plunge me down into hell later?

from lihan mummy~ .

he broke with me ytd.
i didnt go home.
ohgreat.today english exam summore.
i can score,but i nv do.sleep until last half an hour+ then do.
fail liao.
i cant describe..how i cried.
i dont know.
im sorry.i cant post lerhs.the tears coming back.

whats going on...

finished my history paper!!!!yay.
and lost my wallet.=((((((
so many memories inside!!!sighs.its unbelievable.coz there was only like,4ppl on the bus and i searched the bus.i scanned at the front!!
sighs.my favourite neoprints all inside....my ahma,andra&me...and most of all.......my favourite favourite favourite favourite neoprint,me alicia berdine!!!sighs....still got my neoprints of 6A...my cinema tix...especially my One More Chance one...SIGHS.and the Red Eye one....and SOBBBB.my Initial D ones!!!!
my ezlink card,my popular card,my carissapark card...my 1obucks!!!!whaaaaaaaaa.and the wallet itself!!!!!my deardeardeargrandma buy derx.sighs.miss my wallet....

went to meet wenhao and wilson at the polyclinic.he go fake some weird illness & the doc wanted to give him 4days mc.LOLS.then go cc.....hmm.today got meet new ppl!we met this guy on the bus....coral sec.Jae aka jason aka jaesonn?hahax.cool guy.hes nice.but his running gotta be better=P


OMGGGGG......my mom flipped open my phone!!!!!!!!shit.shit.shit.she saw the pic of me and him together.crapcrapcrap.then i was like,stunned for a second.and plastered a smile on my face and started kajiaoweiing.lols.some shit about the pic being cut off,having left off me and andy.some shit that is lahs.owells WTF anyway.i dont give a fuck.coz my mom shld know by now bahs.its OBVIOUS.owells.wtf.

dear kana rashes liaos.heng still can joke around.slp tight...praying its better~study hard!meLURFESue4everr.

science!sianded.fail lerhs.sighs....went mac piaa after that.fell asleep in mac lorhs.so embarrassing.lols.hmms.then went to cc-he nv go sch.sick.poor guy.then...got alotalot of ppl.today settle daiji.eeeeeeeeps.owell.heard barn was really angry~~aiyos.i dunno much lahs.

but knew some new guy called wenhao from gvss,and another er.aloy-something- from hscs.he looks like keyyong~~and a sebest from lyss,and TERENCE! ahh...denise's kor.hahas.hes so fair!!and hes joey's cousin=)) plus some gvss guy called.er i cant rmb his name.

yepps.hahas.all quite nice to me lahs.then pokai was sending me recordings..weetx.then deric+labi wanted to talk to me....haiyos.i get my jacket and run downstairs w them.talked SO much....hmms.another few who disapprove of my being with andy.sighs.well...we talked.i almost broke down.but heng i kept my composure.sighs...they were saying so many bad things and i just kept defending and defending.then they bo bian osos.but really lahs.they're my bestest best buds lorhs.i know they may be right most of the time lahs.

but i dun want to think about how bad he is now lahs.i know i want to trust him-even though u guys dun think so-hes my stead!!if i dont trust him then who will??really lahs.ive known him for 4years-hes changed i know,but somehow love is SO freakin blind i cant do anything about it.its just...i love him too much to care.rmb u asked me this afternn-ppl call me stuff behind my back,wouldnt i mind?

last time i would have minded.perhaps just that bit.but now,the first thing that im worried about is that he might get dragged in with me too~gosh lahs.i know i would do anything.anything-

then i was talking to pokai osos.hmms.well he told me his view of him.wasnt that bad.wells.i dont know.

went off to the playground with lester,xavier,rebecca,pokai,jonathan,shihan,wilson,wenhao,berdine & adrian.wahhs.met rongfu with jingyi!!!!*ORHOR STEAL PPL zhabor pengyou**then had so much fun there.laugh like siao.but somehow jonathan noticed me bahs i suppose.he asked me what was going on.sighs.then i just lay down in the middle of the playground and sighed the whole day.im disappointing labi i know.im REALLY sorry.but i cant help it.

stay down there until like,8+ then rebecca mother came!!!wahhhhs.siala.wilson talk to the parents then dunno y they like him so much we get to hang out together always lers.lols.wad on earth.then i zao at first.with adrian and wenhao.we go buy ice makan together~~then wait until 9+ still havent talk finish.lols.but it ended anyway.

woohoo best part~wenhao adrian wilson lester send me back home-tribute to wenhao who carried both my bag and LESTER.LOL.so nice rites.summore tell me to walk big swing arms.lols.tuabai nia.ROX!yayyyyyy~~~~~~

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!im able to blogggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was jammed up with blogger for like,how many days straight???ive been wanting to blog since saturdayyy!!!!!!!!!


lets start with saturday then.=)

went to berdine hse w andy....sighs.i cried.coz he -CENSORED- lerhs.sighs.well.i was just swinging there thinking of what yutingjie said lorhs...sighs.yeahs.i guess she was just that teeny weeny little bit right.then i just thought of everything lahs.so many pple are like,against my being with him....but really,its my life.let me live it lahs.then again....SIGHS.so i stopped and just called andy over...yeahs.we didnt say anything bahs.it was all in our minds i suppose.
then we went to mac to meet xavier,rongfu,pokai,chris,shihan.and there was a surprise waiting there for me-WILSON AH GONG!!!!!!miss him SOOOOOO much.i was so shocked lahs.then we all go OCH..again.weets.wasnt scared of that place as much lers.somehow.dunno why.hmms.got bat nest!!!eeeew.hmms.then after that went to changi village to eat.wahahas.then.chengjun was there and GOSH.he was wearing the same shirt as me?gosh.i was wearing andy's shirt....goshgosh.i DIVED under the table lorhs.siao man me.then they were going,"hes not bad looking wad" WAD THE.i didnt need THAT kinda support for the moment.then was trembling like siao lorhs.didnt know what was going on lahs.owell.then we quickly left.i suppose he saw me and him...then shihan and wilson went to kembangan....meet me at 11.3opm lahs.diao.we climb over the gate go beck hse.then they ton there.SIAN.cant ton.went back at 12+ diaos.bored.

sunday.go loyang point meet andy...he ponning tuition.sighs.owell.then playplay awhile then go liaos.hahas.i study nia!

monday.ehs.cant remember.dun care la.that old hen go make me do some stupid work.threaten me with demerit.go die la.

tuesday.ehs.play "basketball".kaos.

wednesday.pon sch!!!!yay.go pia at mac.

thursday.goodness.today cannot spell geography.too nervous.siala....sianded.then go tm walk w andra.so shuang man.talked about EVERYTHING possible.weets.


he sick.takkaire sia.love you lots.