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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

hmm.had a horrible day ytd.
thought i lost the key to the np noticeboard
pumped like siao in front of the sec1s
earned the squad 100 for leaving my dust cover behind.sorry!

yeahs.we owed 355.
paid it off by 3 sets-

1 set=

25 pumpings
25 sit ups
25 crunches
50 jumping jacks.

ohyeah maybe that doesnt sound like alot, but multiply it by 3 and you get-

75 pumpings
75 sit ups
75 crunches
150 jumping jacks

and that doesnt include the restartings and no counts.yepps. plus another 110 jumping jacks.
adding on remaining in guys pumping position for 15minutes hearing jiaying ma'am scream at us all the most strong and horrible words you could ever find in the dictionary-except the vulgarities tts all.

haiyo.

yeahs and today i cant move.from top to bottom muscle ache.yepps.
gosh i cant even cough.hurts bad.
muscles darn pain.
plus i punched the wall so hard now my finger fracture again.
okay i know im stupid but i ytd vv angry lahs.
uniform check like,6-7 times sia.

but ytd it was fun talking to sheena about anything under the sun hahas.
laughed alot. yeahs.
was darn scared when we had to go home.darn darn dark sias.summore 8+ liaos.
so call him come help.phews.
then sheena and him gang up on me haha.owells.


to another him-dont view my profile.dont let me know that you exist.just disappear from my memory.

the wind blew;
and i shivered.

went to tm..
yeahs.bought naruto.
was forced to take 359 back to chuanjies hse...
was arnd yakun there and saw him at the next stop alrdy.somehow could recognize him..
i alrdy had that bad feeling,yet i still took 359.im an idiot.

yarhs.glad he didnt take the bus or see me..


coz i was crying.

dont know what i was doing...
just saw him and broke down.


watched episode 64?ehh not sure.gosh.
i cried sias.
keep crying nowadays.siala.
but really,
neji found out like,the truth behind everything in the Hyuuga clan lahs.
so sad~hizashi die for his bro.
whaa.

i am so freaking pissed.

"first i get my nails done,and then i told the doctor to make me look like j lo,and then he totally messes up my nose job,and made me look like freaking shrek."

ahaha.not me lar.from "whitechicks" the film.

but i am freaking pissed haha.

ytd was so disappointing.awws.
project runway.
i cant believe it.
jay,kara saun,yeahs.but wendy??goodness gracious me.
what happened to AUSTIN?my idol...lols.
he got kicked.
man am i pissed.

what is the world coming to.

what a great xmas.

received 2smses which i wanted to forget about forever-
gosh.plus some really bad rumours from dhs guys?i dont even know them):


the msg really shook me.
please leave me alone..

are you guys PITYING me or sth?
gosh.
you dont know how much worse i feel.
enjoy your life people.


dont try to remember me;
coz im trying to forget you.


i wanted to make myself know that we lived on different worlds from october 12th onwards.you moved on without me.
and me,being the foolish girl i was,
just stood there waiting for you to come back.
i was always making plans to make my first step out when you would take one step backwards,stopping me.

im trying so hard,so hard to think you never existed;
never came into my fcuked up life;
never brought me up to the highest skies ever
and thrown me back down.

and you're just making it worse.
dont talk to me.
i dont want to remember anything.
i dont want to remember anything tht happened between the 8th of september and the 12th of october.

....
......



we can never be friends.

party over..sighs.they're all at orchard having fun...yeahs.

remember last year's xmas eve...wasnt at home yarhs.my favourite memory ever-
celebrating it at the esplanade with all my closest friends...
miss those happy times.

kinda feel like crying when i see all the changes in my life..
just wish someone would pick up the pieces for me.
coz i dont understand anything that's happening.

thanks for all the smses you guys sent(: touched that you guys still remember me(:
arigato!*bowbow*

my cousins and i..we've been real close yarhs.
since as long as i can remember.
thought we grew apart.
miss them so much.
the times we always used to play catching.
i mean,ya we're still close,but definitely we're more..mature.
no more splashing around together in the toilet hahas(:
no more blind mice;

theres alotta suaning-its alright(: love it.angkukueh marcmarc!(:

trying so hard to be happy...
but tonight cant go chiong at orchard with the rest.
doubt i can even go out tml.
i miss all the times i used to share with my friends.
i still havent received the CCSS guy's sms..
my 1o0planes caught-wish never came true.
onto my next 1o0..

its my loneliest christmas ever.

perhaps i should treasure what i have already;
but what is there to treasure?

here lies she
the unloved.

its just a sad christmas for me...merry christmas,everyone.

havent blogged for so long...hmms.kkaies lets start with 2o dec.

played mahjong at alvin's house...then go watch late night show with minghui,marvin and erm.weihong?im not sure..ya.we watched the 1o.4opm King Kong.awws.veryveryverysad.i cry like siao lor.

ehh.21st dec.
third class drill badge.
sighs.kinda screwed up.
but my commanding was loud enough i guess.
we learnt quite a few songs..were screaming it throughout our running.awws darn nice.no one was actually tired after running so many rounds.coz of the singing!
then we did the mabu thingy.man were we united((:
hmm after tht go alvin hse play mahjong again.haha.
then play until latelate...xavier take the haro ride me home.
whaa.fell on top of him haha.
then hes like,real muddy after tt.
"wenxin,u alright anot?heng ar.me fat,like cushion liddat."
lols.

23rd dec.
go schl discuss sec1 orientation..yepp.
was really happy when found out some of us got into ahs(:
got pple pei me lers(:
yepp.then went to The Magic Of Love by the fcbc yarhs.
not bad...was with yantze&cj..yepps.

man cant wait for today.everyone coming my hse celebrate sia!yays.


and the snow never stopped falling;

went for np unofficial training today.hmms.didnt do much.but learnt a little~
we were all running away from the ncc pple and janson scared me half to death.lols.
so cute sia.run one whole round le lor,then they still there.
hmms.
hows junjie.i dunno sia.quite sad lorhs.sighs.poor guy lorh.he doesnt deserve this kind of treatment from those pple.
and shayn...havent talked to him so long i dont even know who he is anymore.
minghui just called.treating me to kingkong hahas.smell sth fishy.owells.haha.JK!
wonder how hes doing in malaysia.
wonder whether aloy has lost my key *crossing fingers,praying not*
hoping eric's doing his essays.
thinking where the hell he's gone to...why havent you smsed me...im still waiting..its been 13 days..sighs.you've forgotten me i guess):
blurred out totally.

just wanna get away from it all~

went to aloy auntie hse ton ytd..
shihan junjie aloy me guanli there playing mahjong sias.then zihao and guojun supposed to come): nv come.
hmms.darn tired lorhs.
then we went to punggol...went past hanwei's hse..then go compass play.eeep.the arcade...not like arcade sia.playground would describe it more perfectly.
wells.then go sengkang library.so sian sia.fell asleep le la.
oyarh.found out theres NO npcc camp.man me and terry screamed.haha.


was it his smile then?
maybe.

ytd supposedly go play basketball.
the court dont recognize me anymore):
i couldnt even shoot in one):

whyy.

sighs.

owells.going ton aloy auntie house again.maybe mahjong can help me get over it?owells.
i'll try.
whaas.then tml still gotta go help eric with his crazy homework.
poor guy nias.
15 essays,each 500-700 words???

but owells.
im glad.
hes going back to school(:

man id better survive npcc camp.


for the nights you missed
you didnt see
the waters running through the slits under;
the rainbow that never came-
just the rain.

nonsensical but i sorta like it(:

how about one i wrote in my wallet ytd-

the darkness engulfs me;
among deafening sounds of the silence,
the screaming voices of nothing.
they are here.
i can feel their touch upon me;
the patterns rapidly drawn-
i dont understand them,
the foreign language they speak;
but maybe
one day i will.

hmm.i'll edit it though~not supposed to come out that bad.supposed to be about a person who is both blind and deaf.yarhs.aiyaaa.cannot tell lehs!haha.i'll try hard.
be back with a better one on monday!(:

heys.was at the 6a bbq ytd.
was preparing so much...yepp.

hope it paid off..
pics not uploaded yet though.

yarhs.we lighted candles..
played truth or dare.
screamed at the sea.
threw ice into the sea.
roasted marshmallows together.
sang together.
had fun(:

yeahs.but going to the beach is kinda torturous nowadays.
everytime go there will become so moody.
i mean..

we celebrated berdine and my birthday at the beach.
berdine's bbqs were at the beach.
where we all were together.
where we played that mentos game-
where i was with him.

where they got so many daijis to settle;
where junjie saw me cry;
where we were all scared when 3am came-

where i met him.
that would be the only time ever.

lihan.why are we always in the same boat.
i want a ship instead XS
i dont understand why.

is it possible to like someone so much after a breakup with someone else,
even though you've only met him for less than two hours?

that has to be absolutely crazy.no its not me.

but its not gonna be me.im not gonna think that way ever. noway will i ever do that.


its been..64 days?gosh.
hard work doesnt get me anywhere.
im trying so hard,so hard.but nothing works.
this sucks.really.

might have been those eyes
staring straight into mine
somehow you just managed
to get him out of my mind;

heyy.kimliang asked a gd question-

what do i want for christmas.



i want...to receive an sms from him.=))



thats all=)

the 5 fact thingy is back! frm vivien-
rules of the game;1. post 5 weird/random facts about yourself2. at the end of the post, list the name of the next 5 people who want next to do this.3. leave a comment 'you are tagged' in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

here goes 5 random facts about me;

1. hmm.i actually enjoyed Zathura when i hate scifi?

2. im DAMN scared of horror stuff yarh.

3. i finally downloaded Bleach!haha.

4.waiting to buy a SKIRT from bugis.hahah.

5. im buying an ipod despite that one i "have".

next 5 person to cont this shall be;aiya lazy.whoever wanna do just do=D

the ipod drove me to tears today.aiyos.lol.
aint it stupid.
crying over an ipod.

i couldnt get the itunes library to work properly..
and i was getting frustrated at the 6A bbq stuff..
at the same time thinking of so much stuff.

i miss pokai.was chatting with him on msn just now...think he grew thinner sias.awws.please takecare...
you're the reason why 185 pple stay together.
takecare always.

still daydreaming.about that day at ecp.
yarhs.
why.
dont make me go siao everytime i receive an sms.
please.

1o0planes.waiting for my wish.
only im not sure about my wish now.
*hengheng.havent wished yet.*

baobeierzi havent slept yet.dunno what he thinking sias.

ya.and jonathan finally spoke to me?
im kinda relieved.

just cant get that day out of my mind.sighs-

FORT MINOR
"Believe Me"

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey

Hey
I used have a little bit of a plan
Used to
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But it's not gonna work
Cause it's really much worse than I thought
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one's around
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

[bridge]

[chorus]
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

Do what i have to do
You're on your own now believe me

What ever happens to you
You're on your own now believe me

What do I have to say
You're on your own now believe me

It's not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now believe me

broke record yay.
never get caught at 2am playing com.its 4am!yes!

went to eastcoastpark ytd?yepp.

sighs.met this new girl called barbara yarhs.shes really nice.

yeahs and me andra her were rollerblading.ya and she suddenly asked me why i was single-gosh i was stunned lols.but anyway.
yarhs.the skate rental shop had these 3 guys.really cool yarh.thanks for all your help.

oh i dont know.
im going mad i guess.
not so much as desperate.
but..
overcome with weird,confused feelings?

maybe i shldnt write this,but..
it felt so sweet when that chaicheesec guy waved.
yeahs.
was waiting for his sms.
instead joel did.yeahs.his friend.
not saying that i dont like a new friend,but seriously i was waiting the whole day for his sms?
and it was joel instead.
i was REALLY disappointed.
coz he was the one who asked for my number..
and i dont see why i care so much!
its scaring me.
ive only seen him for 2hours?
and i care so much.

man im going crazy.
really.

well next.met his friend also.weili or sth.yeahs.his eyes are REALLY dark.
whoas.
then at night..had this conference with xiangru and alex and alex.hahas.alex.new guy from hscs.hmm.you're nice=) haha.

In no particular order, list down any 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.

1. jiayi
2. jaeson
3. alex
4. joel
5. terry
6. lihan
7. inggrid
8. that malaysian chaichee guy~~
9. mrs peh
10. mary chan x)
11. andra
12. guojun
13. berdine
14. marcus
15. cedric

So what do you think of number 4?
oh just knew him ytd.awws.not the person i wanted to know.darn sad.

How would you feel if number 4 slapped you on your face?
i probably wouldnt see him again lers.no chance haha.

How nice is number 6?
hello shes my darling mom.

On a scale of 1-10, rate how good looking number 5 is.
ehh.i dunno!

Will you ever fall for number 11?
awws im in love with her already=)

Honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
FAINT.then rush to find him.sigh~

What sport would you play with number 12?
bball la. wahahaha.korkor rawks my world.

What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
man id be DAMN happy.

Do you hate number 9?
man i LOVE mrspeh.

How much do you like number 2?
oh.haha.ehh.dun say=)

Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
HAHAHA(: maybe? lols.

Would 14 one day kill you?
NOWAY.my darling sista.noway.but ehh he'll kill me if i kept the fact that i was sad from him.

Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
10!!!!!!!!!!AHHHH!!! MARYCHAN MY WORLD!!wahahas.=)

heyheyhey.

just came back from penang.

was holding the sick bag all flight long.lols.

hmms.

bought alot...
shopped alot..
ate ALOT...
walked alot..
took darn lotta expensive taxis...
breathed in alot more carbon monoxide..man, the gas problem is probably gonna take at least a few years off my life.lols.
beautiful hotel..
spent alot of time in there,despite my parents' nagging."WAHLAO come holiday you go lie down on the bed and sleep sleep sleep.then wake up eat eat eat.then watch tv.haiyo."
hello,who was the ones who went against SCV at home?
and there was DISNEY>awws cool.missed thats so raven ALOT.havent seen it in ages.
there was starsports too~was screaming all the way through the SA and Dallas match.
and was shouting too in the ehh,Liverpool and erm.ocrap cant remember.well i WAS focussing on steve gerrard a little too much hahas.
but WAIT heres the catch.
note everyone.
including 6A and 1A peeps,even though you may know already from your experiences with me on subject SOCCER.
i am NOT a fan of liverpool.
haha.note that anson=)
i am STILL loyal to my one and only ARSENAL.haha.

owell whatever.

there was this giant arcade upstairs at the Prangin Mall.can you believe it i didnt go there.
well for one thing it was DAMN big.i mean the whole shopping mall.PLUS the arcade.guess it coulda make up at least 3 or 4 times of WS.big rite?toldya.
ehh.then it was 7 floors high.by the time i got to the 4th floor man i was DEAD tired.couldnt make it to the top.
but there was an arcade in the BASEMENT.haha.rock fever fans would be glad to find out that there was one machine of EVERY version of rockfever over there.coolya?
didnt see ddr though.
but there was ez2dancer.which was switched off.awws.
and there was percussion master.didnt feel like playing.owell.

missed singapore lots.yeahs.

and im back.=)

loveSGlots.