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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

wow thats alotta tags haha(:

ytd go granduncle hse-he and his wife are so cute haha.

then stay over at my grandma's hse.had the tv to myself man haha.middle of the night watch disney channel lols.
then today go bugis,then meet my aunt,then go commonwealth get angpao lol then go tm yay.
cool lahs.though i didnt buy anything.blehs hah.

this post is kinda boring haha.paiseh(:

so..ya.everyone get more money ya?yay!CNY rocks!

heys everybody~happy CNY~

man pple are gonna get so fat in this period of celebration man.
just eat and eat and eat.

hmmhmm?

this is fun(:

se7en things that make me smile!

#1. seeing him ^^
#2. funny smses
#3. children(:
#4. ddr
#5. naruto!
#6. using computer!
#7. staring into his eyes

se7en things to win my heart

#1. gentleman acts wahahas.
#2. does not pangseh me whatsoever
#3. has alot of time for me
#4. decisive(i dont lead,i follow)
#5. surprises!yay.
#6. sincerity(:
#7. mean it when you say forever

se7en things i believe in

#1. ankle socks(:
#2. making downloading offically legal.
#3. telepathy
#4. changing phone once every year
#5. loving someone always
#6. children are from heaven(:
#7. the chaichee guy lost my number and didnt know how to get it back wahahahas.

se7en things im afraid of that are just BLAH

#1. depression
#2. my loved one walking out on me (wel actually he did) highfive szexuan~
#3. losing everything (happened before)
#4. getting disfigured
#5. being humiliated in PUBLIC
#6. no friends
#7. growing up

se7en things i do everyday

#1. hold my phone!
#2. look in the mirror(:
#3. talk on the phone
#4. sleep in mr mok's class
#5. pull up socks during assembly
#6. run when i see CCP or anyone else
#7. think bout him,him and him. (note there are 3 diff hims LOL) sad life.

okays firstly.

happy lunar new year everyone(:

uh huhs.
we had celebration today~
yeahs.
ncc performed so well(:
seriously they were damn funny lahs.
yeah jiayou(:
wonderful work~

and we went back to whitesands.
mdm heng asked me-

"have you found your jaychou yet?"
and i replied,
"i think sometimes i dont need jaychou-just jj lin is good enough for me."(:

helped out in the guzheng performance,
and cheered like siao for the school.
it was fun(:

yeahs.
then suddenly coral came.
i mean,yeah its great they came back(and in a big bunch too)
ya i missed vivien so much(:
saw him too~
couldnt help it lah.
cry again lor.sianded.blehh~~
ya and poor vivien didnt know what to do with a crying wenxin(:
haha.
and mrs zee came over and started a conversation-

"HELLO!ehh wenxin where your boyfriend ah?"

lol.
and i started crying even harder~
then phew mrs zee got the msg and changed her sentence-

"wah wenxin see me and vivien only dont have to cry until liddat derh.i know you very touched,but still dunneed to cry until so jialat(:"

i love mrs zee(:

yahs.thanks for the hugs!andrea,vivien and erica.you guys rock~


dont see why i cry everytime.
what can i do.

yep.then i was relieving 1E(:
first time!
so cool~
was helping them with their art(:
they drew a card for their momsanddads(:
very sweet.
ya and was talking to grace and kelly(:
kelly was so sweet~
she just held out a pen and said
"for you!(:"
man that did alot for me~
i really agree man~

men are from mars,
women are from venus,
children are from heaven(:

their innocence is really unbelievable~

and so i went to pick my little cousin from nursery(:
hes so cute(:

then went to meet berdine beck jiaxin&weizhi.
whaa suddenly they ask whether i smoke.
then i say no.
i quote them-

"but got a reliable source say you smoke leh.tht person keep asking me whether you smoke lor."

anyone in their right mind would know that i'd never ever ever smoke.
its impossible!
yeahs.
so this reliable source,who apparently reads my blog and doesnt understand what i write.
when i wrote "puff puff" in the previous post,i meant panting after the PE run.
sheesh.

seems that the "reliable source" doesnt know me at all~
its a sad thing.

yarhs and i heard he accepted christ(:
its a good thing i suppose~
but comparing him to last time,

i think now...

i dont know him at all anymore.

wah forgot to mention.

joel from prcs smsed me.
lols.
i was like "huh?"
hoping it was the chaichee guy.
then i call over,
guy's voice.
man was about to scream chaicheeeee
then haha.
so long nv talk to joel lers.
nice to meet you joel!
great you still remember me(:

hmms.stopped posting just now..coz pple call me go down(:

yeahs.
go alvin hse play mahjong again(:
yepps.
wah got good cards..but didnt manage to win~~aww.
haha.
nvm play for fun only(:
now gotta chiong my ppt liaos..

wah scary lorhs.
just now downstairs with alvin aziz marcus guojun xavier lester chris and wenhao...
got ssb.

*bang.*

sia la.
he go ask aziz


"boy how old are you?"
er,15?

then the card flash out and we all stunned.
sia la.SSB.whaa.
where got so daomei one.
but heng the officer veh nice,nv go drag us who-knows-where.

sheesh.

yepp.

but aiya i dunneed scared coz i dont smoke.
yays


cheers to nonsmokers(:

yay im in the twittish mood today(:
for lihan and terry to rave over.


todayyex.ii goo tUuh skiewlx ann slackk.wakakakax.yeappiiex.
pe shoo tiriin n0rhhx.run heree ann derex.miiEx puff puff puffiex wakakakax.
dhen horhs.gort tUuh draww oniionnx onn a pwiicex ofb papperx.wakakakax.
ann dhen worx.
ii c0mee baCkk slaCkk w0rs..wiit liihann mummiiieexx.shooo shwiit manx.wakakakax.


weetx!wakakakax(:
twitty language for my darling lihan and terry(:
damn kewt nias.
klahs shall stop the crapping using twit lang.
super hard to type man haha.
think i spent 15minutes trying to figure out how twits typed.
hahas.
jk lahs.
this is for lihan and terry to laugh about.
coz they love twit language(:


twitsyay!

uretihsia.

new word for the day~


go figure.


ahhh why am i awake at this kinda hour.
tml sure cant wake de.
ahh still gotta run.
mr tong my leg pain!!!

no excuse cheyy.


lalala.



im siaoooooooo.

im real sorry for this...its gonna be a depressing post again yarhs.and yet i have to finish it quick to reply him.

craps.

we get a low intake.
no idea how to increase intake.
not trying to increase intake.

hear so many things about him
dont want to believe it
but hate it.

thinking of the past
still seeing him in the thoughts.
the thoughts of yesterday.

i cant do anything to help.

ytd wasnt good.
went for np yarhs.
found out the intake.

it was really disappointing.
we cried yarhs.

we were even thinking of not taking in sec1s this year.
jialat.
die le la.

sigh.

kays so i went to schl and got attacked by mr mok.he say i blur.awws.
went for the i not stupid too stuff.shldnt have gone?
maybe shld have stayed back for the chaichee match):

watching it really made me blur..
im still not talking now.
fatigued i guess.

it was a wonderful show.
yes it was.
and i saw sean chye gosh.
i'll call sande and tell her how wonderful her brother was in the show,even though he was one of the classmates(:
great job sean!

yeahs.
and it was kinda sad.
my life was so hectic,
just like them.
the things they scolded-same as mine,word for word,some worse.
yeahs.
lihan & terry didnt understand why i suddenly cried.
wells i have no idea too~
but it was really the same case-
only my "brothers" dont run away.
love each and every one of them~
and it makes me think.
all of us-the cc family.
we're in the same situation as the show yarhs.
only we're stuck in the middle where we'll never understand our parents and viceversa.
its a horrible feeling.
i cried for all of us sias.

yeahs.
cheers to jack neo for this great movie(:
but i have to admit,
it instilled a sense of,i dont know,
it made me feel suicidal.

of course i wont be stupid..


but then again.

went for the band concert ytd-chrono animato.
it was great(:
yepps.
only the seats were bad lahs.
coz no platform vv hard to see hahas.

after that went to look at the moon for awhile..
oya i met hilary and adwyna.so sweet..sighs.miss them(:
yeahs.then hung arnd in the linkway drilling lols.
then went for supper with the 2D pple(:

satay+coke=utter heaven(:

ytd!!yay.we had the courtcase HAHAHAH.

so fun(:
chongrui was my laogong-70years old summore.
we've been married for 7long years.
and hes accusing me of attempted murder.
horrible eh?
hahas.

procecutor-chongrui: what were you doing at the time of the attempted crime?
chongrui was supposed to say he was making coffee,but this was how it went-
chongrui:er.er.er.er.er.er.......i was baking cake.
LOL.
alot of screaming in the "court",thanks to me and elissa hahas.elissas REALLY good(:

matthew was like,

matthew the "uselesss" judge: security guards!!drag these people awayyyy~~
to no avail(:
the security guards were laughing their heads off back"stage" lols.
so he went
banging his hammer on the table;this court is mentally unsound!!court dismissed!

sheesh haha.

oya we loved edwen's chaptersong((:

this,is the chapter song:
this,is chapter one,the story has begun.
this,is chapter two-his wife,was beautiful.
this is chapter three-she spent the night with me.
this is chapter four-he stabbed me to the floor;
this is chapter five-he stabbed me in the thigh;
this is chapter six-he hit me with a stick
this is chapter seven-he almost sent me up to heaven;
this,is chapter eight-he was sick in the head.
this is chapter nine-i was in a coma,day and night-
this is chapter ten-and this is how the story ends(:
lols cant remember.i'll ask him though(:
rocks right?haha.
mrs rod was rolling le la.haha.

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now for today-

hmms.class went ohkay.
janetkoh requested for diagnostic test.
yepps.

gave us 50mins.
i used 15.
horrible nia.
15mins to write my best essay ever.yeahright.
but it was my first time getting scared by my own compo-janetkoh was right lehs.i do have a dark mind.eeeps.

i wrote about this voice speaking to this person..eeeeeps.dun say liaos.haha.

yeahs and ncc helped us again(: we didnt have to run 2.4km yay.coz they got muster parade and the whole school was outta bounds((:

carried the spars outside to shai4 tai4 yang2-lols.
suntan nias.
hmmhmm.
then we were bringing it in..
lisa and me got so high we decided to take 4 at one go.
man we broke our shoulders le la.
yeahs and ncc came to the rescue again hahas.
thanks for the thought!(:
we didnt let them help though~we can do it(:

hmm.maybe shldnt have joined campcraft team.sialahs.vv hard lorhs.how to study liddat.aiyo.
hmmhmmhmm.

then went back with the rest..
mac again haha.
only the pple i was with were scary people(:
willie and jonathan wouldnt sit over): so bad right lols.antisocial:p
met rujun mei~
sweet girl(:

mwahx!


the voice spoke to me;
it shrieked with laughter
and i clutched my head.
this couldnt go on..
and i picked up a chair
and hit her,again and again.
i screamed-never stopped.
i had expected to hear the familiar shriek of laughter again-
but there was none.

lols janetkoh's diagnostic(:

life has its ups and downs.
just why is mine down all the time.
its been real long lerhs.
1year in ahs.
yarhs.
i want my whitesands)':
why cant i have it back.
i thought i could pretend i was alright;
pretend to be happy
its hard.
so hard.
lying to myself
pretending that andy doesnt exist;
pretending that im a damn fcuked up class joker
thinking that i can study when im not schl material
believing that i'll always be part of whitesands
believing that i actually wanted to get out of that life;
of fights;
of arguments;
of sparring;
of mistrust;
but at least i had friends there-
daddy-kor-mummy-ahgong-jie-meii-
i let you guys down.
im gonna give up schl soon~
and just go somewhere-
slk?
i dont know.
just wanna die early.
or maybe now.
ever since the start of last year nothing has gone right for me.
everyones like,caught up in their own life yarhs.
all i hear is just blahs.
but i can assure myself-
theres nothing to live for anymore.
its true.

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if the wallet cant have the coke cap
why settle for the key~
when the key already has his bottle
needless to say,
they'll always be together.

fairytales will never exist.

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chaicheeguy.

arghs.been looking for him for so long.
he took my things and ran off ahh.
cannot find him lers.
aiyo appear in front of me lah.
i want back my msgs(:

aiya duncare lahs.its been too long lerhs.

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i am dying;
its a beautiful word.
like the long slow sigh of a cello; just dying.
but the sound of it is the only beautiful thing about it.

yet another day..

was kinda late.just picked up my stuff and ran~
got real dirty.

then had elit..got courtroom scene.gosh my acting sucks.
howhowhow.

yeahs.went for np..
today was fun lahs(:
did alotta pt but today was cut some slack(:
jiaying ma'am veh nice to us today lorhs.
hmmhmmhmm.
we did 159 jumping jacks((:

and lisas my laogong(: loveher(:

walked back in the rain.
so shuang can.lols.
we stuck our heads under the hairdryer(:

oya and zhenglaoshi didnt come(: even better.

and ya.mrchua so bad sias.
tuckedout shirt=10pushups.

so many pushups nia..sure die derhs.
WAHAHAHA.
we love mrchua(:
we're so glad we're in UG(:
yay cheers for pumpings!and pt yeah~

went walking with the twins haha.
so blur lor.

It was only a matter of time
Before I got tired of your ways
I tried to make you fire,
But you were only ice
And you didn't seem to wanna change

So then I looked at someone new (no you did)
And he was looking back at me too (she was looking back at you too)
Saw that I was hurt
Knew just what to say
Knew just how to push the pain away
You know I need stability (she knew you needed stability)
And you know you can't give it to me (so she thought she'd give it to you)

My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

Though when I call him on the phone
I never feel butterflies
I know that I can trust
He'll always give me love
And I know mine will grow for him in time
He tells me that I'm beautiful
And I never ever heard that from you
He doesn't cause me pain
Tears falling like the rain
And though I'm still in love with you
You know I need stability (and you aint giving me it)

It wasn't easy letting go but I know that I had to think of the long run and say goodbye
And find someone who appreciates me even though.

even though.




this song explains everything man.cheers to tatayoung(:

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reminds me.
project runway ytd man.sheesh.
jay rocks lahs.lovehimlovehim(:
and karasaun was starting to get that little bit annoying.dunno why.
wendy gosh.ohkays.
her acting is horrible.
the sweet daughter just doesnt know her mom.

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ytd morning-
my first time ever going to schl in the bus.
sheesh.
i woke at five.lols.
but the morning breeze(or morning freeze)
was beautiful(:
and the sky was nice and all...
took no.2 yarhs.
went past changiprison..
yeahs.

f*c*ipapa/ahgong your children always waiting for you out here(:
i miss him sias.
cant even visit him inside.
just wonder how hes living lorhs.
dont tell me mahjong/carrom 24/7 lorhs.
he so skinny lers.must eat more ahgong.


under the stars i pray to the skies;

wows.orientation passed ytd..and yepp.
brought out the best and worst in people..

i know npcc tried their best..
just wish we'd get people.
and yeahs.

we're really grateful to the ncc for their help..
yeahs.the seniors especially.
ya i was veryvery touched by their actions lahs.
they were like,"guys join ncc girls join npcc"into the mike..
and everytime after the drills we'd cheer for each other.
so yeahs we helped ncc too(:

thanks.

happynewyear everyone~

and yeahs.
i thought i wasnt going to the bash.
but i still did.yeahs.late though.reached downtowneast at 11pm-
looked the same as last year...same people came down too~
was having a great time-then we-lester me junjie zihao bona guojun wenhao alvin sebestian marcus ahboy1 and ahboy2 decided to go to the front to celebrate.
and yeah there he was.
turned away,

and cried.

they moved me over to the middle,
and i had to stop.
they were so worried.
and i just went crazy yarhs.
danced until 4am.
just kept dancing sias.

just dyed my hair back..
sheesh.miss my hair.