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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

was gna go Escape Halloween with jiayi terry megan but megan pangsehed us & so we called wenxin,who pangsehed us too so the three of us decided t dress up as aunties & indulge in The Prestige(:
its a twisted show,i tell you.
& terrykukushen wanted to pee halfway during the show AGAIN---> for those who dont understand,please refer to 17th October's post:D

okay that was a very long sentence.mrs koh woulda given that the title of "RUN-ON sentence"!=x
i am so very worried that im gonna be freaking stressed next year.
some things are just driving me nuts.

well its this way of threatening myself i suppose.
sometimes i get the urge to go to the CC & just hang.when some crazy voice in my head goes,"if you dare to go to the CC,you are so going to lose something close to you(well i dont know,each time its a different object/thing/item/human=x).
& i dont go.

but it kinda restricts me to whatever limits i can stretch to.
so everyday since the exams,all ive been doing is

GOING HOME.


if not,you'll see me sitting at the mrt station looking at the buses go by,not knowing what t do.

ohgosh i really do look suicidal,dont i.

who knows what anyone'd have thought of me when they saw me sleeping on the bench outside the GO in school today=s
zls kept me waiting for 1 full hour!just for some CIP papers?
god.

okay maybe i should rant for once.
im just sick & tired of the world today.

i am not satisfied with losing my wallet.
of all days,i had t lose it on the day i enjoyed myself so much.
for whoever's sake,that just spoiled the otherwise perfect day i had,though i didnt really think much while i was living that dream of a day.
but really.
why.
who knows,i might never get a day like that again.
okay forget that.
losing my wallet a few days before my mom's birthday?
now her birthday's over & i havent gotten her anything,darn.
those few days werent even enough for me to save 10bucks.
& i felt so guilty i went out to sit at the playground all afternoon.
im a freaking good daughter,

okay & i feel like bursting out in tears hahaha.but i shall use a few words to describe what im feeling now.
i am fucking jealous.
i am fucking fucking jealous.
okaythankyou.

the nights i used to spend talking on the phone with you;

so im stuck with nothing to do for the rest of the holidays.
& im gna start work soon at where i also dunno,
& im supposed to invite a certain friend along,whom i know will be killed by whoever knows it.
yeah.

im just freaking worried that greentealover wont come back from chiangrai in one piece.

ohgod.
just what am i thinking.

be my last;

slacked at home cuz i got no key t go home=x
went t th airport t send fiona off though(: shes in beijing now!:DD
yay thn had a good time watching popeye shows & eating at Popeye's(:

went t watch DeathNote again w terry:D encore yay!
hmmmmm i realised i missed a few parts=x hahaha.

you make me wonder,
in what way i should love you.
should i stick close,
should i watch from afar?

ANGANG & WEISHENG OWES US A PRESENT!:DD

dont give up on your dreams,cuz they keep you alive(:


thr are only two letters which make up the "w" for "wenxin"(:

yesterday was th last day 2A was tgthr as a class!
& we enjoyed it(:

haha yile inggrid me tenghui after being powdered by the rest in the haunted house:DD
yepyep.
love you guys<3

i love my anata too:D

yesterday was 24th October.
yesterday was the day my dream finally came true(:
one of the happiest days in my life.

thank you, for making such an effort.
no words can emphasize how much i cherish yesterday<33

it was a reallyreally special day(:

today was Enterprise Day!:D
we won Cleanest Class twice in a row:DDDD
hahaha 2A was just messed up.
cannot find anything at all lol.
after the entire thing thn we find th impt stuff-_-" haha.
but we had fun(:
mmhmm cuz we all got to go one round in the end,
& i really got scared by some stuff inside=x hahaha.

yeah thinking about all this,
maybe its a little too late to cherish being in 2A,since thr's only one more day till we split up.
but im going to miss everyone,i will<3

sth we did out of boredom.mq,me,lihan,jess lim(:

we were out on SATURDAY((:
lihan me mq elissa eileen eunice fiona wanting jasmine vanessa jessica & ohno too many ppl i cant remember:D
mmhmm~
early in the afternn STUPID miaoqian just had to spit water on my leg in th middle of ISETAN SEIYU=x
i promised to blog about that!:D
& both of us ate th same thing thanks to her,
& we ended up in the toilet thanks to her>.<>first time at Mos Burger.
& they just couldnt resist bullying me=x
horrible people.
haha!
& we talked & talked,
& jesslim mq lihan & i went home first,talking about villi :DDD

today was PROJECT RUNGAY :X

sucked.
judges are freaking biased against us,the blasted one.
2A was planning t throw our socks in your locker if you didnt know.
think hans said we got full marks for our X-factor for jumping up & dancing w lihan :DD

she looked great can.why we didnt win,i dont know.darn it really wasnt fair=s th whole sec2 lvl lost t th secones can=x so no face.

SEE?
my mother looks ultra retro can.
hang th two of them, >.<

EXAMS ARE OVER!((:
i did okay i guess~

tdy was inter-class competition!=x

everyone did really well,though we lost~but as empress fiona said,
lose with dignity(:

kayla we did good~
thankyou everyone!:D

& t' the rest of 2A,who cheered for us(:

its kinda sad tht we're enjoying class life whn we're so close to graduation.
th class photo looked funny lol~hahaha!

yeah & im excited about th Project Runway & th funfair:DDDD
COOL MAN!
class outing on sat t' buy th retro stuff!((:
(:

met pamala & shannalim at macs!
:D
terry made me eat the fries lol.
thn we went fer a movie!
World Trade Center.
hmm wasnt all tht good~
not vv emotional to me luh,perhaps its because of th' fact tht terry was beside me wanting t' pee=x hahaha!
so we were eagerly waiting fer th end of th' movie,& we stood up whn the screen went black & we thought the show ended.
then suddenly-

"TWO YEARS LATER"

lol!
we were so disappointed lol.
betcha kuku was dreaming of th toiletbowl already,haha.

mhmm i was sent t th bus stop even though thr was haze(:
thankyou<3
im reallyreally touched(:

慢慢变成第三者;

okay i stayed up half the night ytd.
i had a long,long talk with GA.
havent done such a thing before...& it was sweet(:

yep 11.42pm-3am.
any topic under the sky,
we sure got mention one:D

today's maths was horrific & geog was wayyy hysterical.
doubt i can even get into doublescience.

rarrrh whatever.

ive been a good girl,where's my reward?

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have i ever told you
about this dream of mine,
this beautiful dream of mine.

i dreamt we were together,
just the two of us.
we spent the whole day drowning in sweet laughter
it was so real
i thought my dream might just be fulfilled.

so when hols in June came,
i anticipated my dream to appear one day,
maybe half?
i wouldnt even mind a quarter of a day if you'd only have the time,
but sadly there was nothing of the kind.

i told myself it was alright,
for i still had July;
but somehow i was left alone
on Esplanade night.

i couldnt blame you,
time wouldnt spare you,
so i knew
if we ever went out it'll have to be the best,
for it might take us another year before we meet.
so i dreamed more,
of us watching the sky,
walking home in the night.

i couldnt wait for that day to come,
that day when i'd have you all to myself.

but i realised i never dared to ask,
for that day to occur.

i was even thinking after the endyears,
maybe you'd have a little time.
"im going to be busier this holidays"
was all you said.

maybe there's no point in wishing any longer,
for it might be awkward now,
the uneasiness inside
not knowing what's in the other's mind.

so my dream,
has remained a dream since 14May.
should i believe,
do i wait till Christmas Day?

i miss you,so much so much so much.

& he said to me,
"傻瓜,你太爱我了."

每一夜我感觉你的存在;

ohshucks the haze was crazy ytd.

okay so i woke at 6 & went to the airport to study.
heh hope i get repaid for my effort to wake:DDDD

& i heard sth tht really shocked me.
im still thinking about it~gosh.
maybe im shocked in two ways,but really.
it made me think twice about what im getting.

i heard this from someone who heard it from someone:

"to him,she's his everything.
he knows its going to end soon,but he knows,
she's the one he's going to marry.
他谁也不看,
its going to be her."

WHY THE HECK DID I HEAR THOSE DAMNED FEW WORDS?!

i totally stunned for 10 full minutes after hearing tht,
& i realised

with these eyes of mine
ive seen many hearts break apart
& the most beautiful people ive ever seen
are the ones i see crying in the end.

its just unfair.
its just unfair.


我回头看,是永远都灿烂的爱;
i dont know how much i mean to you now;
if i knew,
would i cry?


its been weeks since ive heard those three words from you;

HAPPY LANTERN MOONCAKE HAZE DAY((:

wanted to go out play lantern but no one around=/
siannnnn.
now i cherish childhood times=x
so very the fun.
hmmmm.
watcha doing,watcha doing.
misses.

today,i have learnt little, but much.

i realise how lucky i am,to wake up in the morning & receive a call from a loved one.
i hope i helped,when my loved one was sad this morning.
i knew how much disappointment there was in my loved one,
when i heard my loved one pour his heart out.
it made me more sure,
that i shouldnt ask for any more,
for i already have,
much compared to many.
my loved one told me to grab the opportunity when it comes knocking,
& to cherish it with all i have.
i know it took a lot for my loved one to tell me to go for it,
& it makes me love him more than ever(:

thankyou babe,
i cherish you((((((:
thankyou(: