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On Top Of The World - Boys Like Girls /

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

you're every line,
you're every word,
you're everything;


i am back after so long.

i just received one whole pile of shit just now.
i am fucking pissed.
now im so angry i cant think of what to say first.
the childish addicted gamer in my house who used the com since the afternoon till now & tried to kill me when i asked for the com,
the lousy results that apparently sends me to bridging & suspends me from cca,
or that insensitive piece of junk.

dont come & tell me you're gna fail,get into bridging,or anymore crap like that when you know perfectly you're gna get a f*ing A1.
dont cry into the arms of your friend because you got an A2,because she has a C5 in her hands.

DOESNT ANYONE KNOW HOW TO BE SENSITIVE NOWADAYS?!

you made her cry like some crazy piece of shit.
what kind of boyfriend are you?
so what if its your first time getting a girlfriend?
you think a girlfriend should do everything that you want her to do?
if it were like that no one would be virgins DAMMIT!
not that im saying you want that kind of thing from her,but why the hell are you forcing her into a corner & then tell everyone you're the one who's suffering there?
maybe i didnt listen to your side of the story,
maybe i shouldnt jump into this problem,
but ive had enough.
since who-knows-fucking-when ive seen her try to accommodate you,
the minute i saw her face when she looked at you i knew how much she was in love with you damn.
the first time i saw you i thought you were a great guy.
i thought so until recently you became so easily irritable.
at the start i guessed that you were the type that gets angry easily,shrugs the people around you away when you were pissed.
was i right?
how do you expect her to communicate with you when all you say is
"i dont know"
"since you think like that then okay la!"
and "okay lor you win la!"
WTF man do you know how to be a boyfriend?
or do you want HER to be your boyfriend?
who the heck is looking after who?
you say she hasnt done anything for you.
have you even thought about wtf you said?
NEVER DONE ANYTHING FOR YOU.
then what were the past fucking three months,
were you in a coma?
what about the home-sending,
the phone calls,
the awkwardness you can hear from her when you get depressed & start to ignore & shrug her off?
she doesnt know how to comfort you,because you dont let her.
stop blaming her & think about what you have done for her.
i know you've done things,
but that doesnt mean she doesnt.
it means that you're not appreciating her enough FUCK.
i hate using that word,but im so pissed now im going to slam the next thing i see.
i cant believe i can still type!

what the hell are you so worried about when she goes to camp?
that she'll get into contact with other guys?
that people'll knock her hand by accident?
so what if they knock her hand or head?
will she fall into love with them at first sight or sth?
what the heck will happen?
what is so frightening about the camp that you'd rather die than let her go to?
i know you're worried,but dont start getting paranoid,its a whole lot of difference,just like how liking someone & stalking her is different.
if you trust her,you wouldnt be that paranoid.
do you actually believe she loves you?
i think you're either doubting her or you're doubting yourself.

so what if you're as good as the world's number one at badminton.
SO WHAT IF YOU'RE CHAMPION,DOES IT FUCKING MEAN THAT YOUR GIRLFRIEND HAS TO BE AS GOOD?
wtf does the tennis world champ have to find a female world champ to be his wife?
we put her in so she'd have a fun time playing with you.
YOU FUCKING HUMILIATED HER IN FRONT OF HOW MANY PEOPLE I TELL YOU,HOW MANY FUCKING PEOPLE?!!!?!
EVERYONE WAS PITYING HER ALL BECAUSE OF THAT FUCKING BLACK FACE YOU GAVE DAMMIT.
& PEOPLE STILL HAVE THE CHEEK TO BLAME HER FOR PLAYING BADLY.
FUCK SHE CAME TO PLAY WITH YOU DAMMIT.
IF YOU WANT TO WIN SO BADLY AT THE EXPENSE OF HER SHAME,
YOU DONT DESERVE HER LOVE DAMMIT!
i know you're good at badminton,everyone says that.
why did your cca think of you immediately when they said the words "badminton competition,& team up with the girls"? why did our cca think of her when they said "team up with the guys" to us?
because we thought you two'd make a great team because you two're together,not because you two can win dammit.
our first thought was never to win,
i bet everyone laughed when they first heard it,
because they knew they'd sabo you two,
just for the sake of embarrassment dammit.
maybe after that we'd have thought of winning,
but our first thought was never that.
which idiot boyfriend would embarrass his girlfriend like that?
showing everyone a black face,
ignoring her,
getting irritated because she cant play badminton,
& THEN FUCKING BLOGGING ABOUT IT SO THAT WHICHEVER SUAKU DOESNT ALREADY KNOW FINDS OUT ABOUT IT?!?!?!


SENSITIVITY is the word brother.

i dont know what to say,
ive shouted out all those,
maybe its inappropriate,
im probably losing out by posting this,
im sorry if i offended anyone,
but you hurt my best friend, & you hurt her so bad.

but you dont think what you're doing is wrong.
shes so busy thinking what's wrong with her that she's almost believing that everything's her fault when obviously you're in the wrong too.
i thought only girls bitched about their enemies on their blogs.
then again those are enemies.

i always try to look at both sides of the story,& maybe i havent heard much of yours.but some actions you did,i can see it for myself.

why in the world,
why in the world would you want to bitch about the closest person to you, your loved one, & let everyone look at her in that degrading light?
how can you be so evil?

hold me close,
cuz i need you to guide me to safety;




aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh i woke up at the wrong time & i cant fall asleep again :x today school starts at 8.50am.i have approximately one hour to slack here.

haha you see the difference in the weight!
omg i am so going to diet ahhhh.
200 Pounds Beauty is going to end somewhere within these two days...go catch it,its worth the money [:

eeee we played captain's ball ytd with the rest of the ccas...i thought we did great at the last match with the basketballers :D we almost won,that's something nice t achieve^^ we went back t the np room & opened up both th safari beds t sleep on xD & rayseen had nothing else better t do so she ended up studying my leg -_-"


mm wanling yanling & i decided t go catch Spidey 3 :DDDD
SO NICE OMG harry osborn is goodlooking what! haha^^
yes it had a lot of resemblance t lots of things..
all in all it was a really good show lah :D
sad at alot of parts,but damn funny at the rest xD
must watch must watch^^

i remember i almost bought the poster for cj but it was so freaking expensive its the rain scene for S$60 eeeeeeep~




stupid poster,you suck people's blood awayyyy

to all the unhappy people out there,here's KEVJUMBA :D

if these walls could talk baby
what would they say?

im here t thank everyone for their thoughtfulness^^

BABY :D
Darren, Megan, Cherine, Edward, Waiwai, Ziyun, Vanessa, Andrea, Mingjun, Liu, Shanna, Pamela, Lihan, Denise, Lichang, Billie, Georgina, Zihao, Miaoqian, Eileen, Elissa, Leeying, Ashley, Rachel, Baochuan, Terry the idiot who forgot my birthday hahaha & the rest that i forgot t mention (hope not :x) oh DAMN i almost knocked my greentea down x.X PHEW~

& thanks to the people who got me the Crumpler! :DDDDD i love it ohkay, i love it :D haha thank you Shanna Ziyun Vanessa Sheena Megan Cherine Xiangyang Jasper Yile Nelson (SEXY! Inggrid Fiona Eileen Elissa Miaoqian & i think there's one more person i shall go confirm again,^^
i didnt expect anything from you all, its a bigbig surprise^^ thank you so much so much so much :DDDDDDD awwwwwww thank you!!!!

okay so the thanking part is over,yet not really over because i really want t say thank you nonstop haha^^ THANKYOU guys,omg THANKYOU :D

haha exams are finally over!
was kinda disappointed at my slack attitude during Emaths MYE today :x holiday mood,then didnt bother about the paper much.its gna be a borderline pass :s
aiya dont care la.
yayyyy its over!!!
& stupid yile just reminded me of the homework ive owed zhenglaoshi for 1 month :x
FORGET THAT LA x.X

mdm sim called for a meeting w the sec3s, & we were just crapping around booing at her rules lol.shes a real sarcastic one.

mm then ziyun went back because she felt sick :/ ziyun cheer up must feel better okay?[:
yep so shanna vc & i went t kfc bedok t meet terry! eee the cheese melts thingy tastes weird.
haha we went t somerset & headed t cineleisure,only t find out 200 Pounds Beauty starts at 1.45pm,not 2.45pm :/ we thought we were early! eeeeeeeeee the next show was at 4.25pm :x
so we went t look for Shaw on the other side, & worse,they had a show at 1.45pm too,but no more shows after that :x our legs were hurting,so we took mrt back t somerset hahaha.
terry tried t buy bacardi but failed :s eeee i was looking forward t trying!
anyway so we went shopping arnd & terry took a photo with johnny depp! 's photo :D
topshop has long shirts & shortshorts! :DDD so nice!!
haha we were heading back and a really pleasant surprise popped out^^

believe it or not,
i saw CEDRIC xD
an old classmate since p3, i havent seen him since the day we got our psle results :/// i was so surprised haha! cuz i saw this bunch of vs guys & i saw that bombastic hair of his & i knew it was him [: took me five shouts of CEDRIC CHNG! & two taps on the shoulder before he turned around haha.
somehow he managed t shoot me a Jiro Wang smile LOL i swear i saw Jiro when he turned around hahaha omg he's one head taller than me!!! :DDDD
anyway,for some weird reason,the whole group of them went into Esprit hahaha xDDD

we went back t Cineleisure t buy the 4.25pm tickets in the end, & found out we got separate tickets! full house already :x so we bought the separate tickets & decided t sit on the stairs hahaha.ey stairs not bad leh!
we ran into wanting pamela yeni georgina who were going t watch Spidey 3 haha.
& its 200 Pounds Beauty, not 2000 Pounds Beauty HAHAHA all of us got it wrong xD
the show was so nice i tell you^^ so funny & the OST is so nice :D im downloading as i speak hahaha.
i wna go shopping soon, shanna got me hooked on one NewUrbanMale shirt :s so expensive though!eeeeeee

headed back & we were talking about how Shanna shouldnt be called 'short', but 'closer to the ground' & 'has a lower centre of gravity' HAHAHA.the people around us were smiling lol.
i went t th library :D haha so quiet thr,

aiyaaaa my eyes are closing,i shall go & sleep^^

the best i ever had;

today is an OMGWTHBBQ day for me, & probably also the most materialistic day in my entire LIFE. not in a bad way,definitely,but way too much for me t digest.whoa....

woke up at 5.22am & started studying for Chinese early this morning.received manymany messages^^ thanks guys :D went t schl,assembly,then up t th class.

*i step into the class*

first thought: okay something's underneath my table.
second thought: flowers?
third thought: cj.
fourth thought: eh no its a plastic bag.

*walks over t table, sits down, swings head to the side t grab a glance at th plastic bag*

fifth thought: uh,bag?

*returns t revising*

THREE MINUTES LATER---

*swings head over to the other side*

sixth thought: i thought i saw the word "CRUMPLER".
seventh thought: noway.
eighth thought: you're dreaming.
ninth thought: look again.
tenth thought: im dreaming. (this is followed by a series of self-pinching & slapping in the face)

last thought: OMG

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yep omgwthbbq i cant believe this shanna & a lot more people whom im gna thank tmr because shanna hasnt told me who chipped in actually bought me a black&grey Crumpler AHHHHHHHHHHH~

DAMN IT HAS STRIPES!!!!!!!

x.X

I LOVE SHANNA ZIYUN VANESSA OHNO SHANNA HASNT TOLD ME WHO ELSE

i freaked out,& am still freaking out therefore im kinda unable t type much,because there's a lot more t come x.X

yes & i got through Chinese without much problem,considering the amount i did yesterday,PHEW :D

mmhmm & i got pissed at cj because he went off first at 12.30 when i waited for him since like,10?eeeep awwwwwww i didnt know baby was getting me stuff somewhere else >.< then he still tahan th tantrum i was throwing :x

i went off t whitesands & i met lihan & eileen & eileen's senior-simin (: haha she's very nice :D & i chatted with lihan about so many things hahaha then finally baby came^^
was still pissed because i still didnt know,but lightened up when i saw his SUNFLOWER :DDDDDDD haha so nice so nice!
its sitting in a big vase in my living room to attain maximum sunlight for photosynthesis,& humidity is reduced t prevent th loss of water through transpiration,where the cells lose water to its surroundings by diffusing out through the stomata from the mesophyll cells.this creates a pull because of the osmosis in between the mesophyll cells....

OKAY I SHALL SHUT UP :D

yes & we went t eat nicenice stuff^^
& i found out he was desperately trying t find flowers for me while trying t make me feel better (i was fuming) awwwwwwwwwww im so sorry dear :x

mmhmm then i didnt know he pakat with shanna they all t get th Crumpler! omgomgomg :DDDDDDDDDD
he actually found out what colour & the colour of the stripe i wanted WITHOUT leaking anything last week >.< i thought it was just normal conversation mah,lol so i blabbed on & he told everything i said t shanna xD

awwwwwww i love you [:

th pinkythingy looks beautiful :D thankyou so much for spending th afternoon with me^^

& holy mackerel mom got me a Guess wallet x.X

honestly,honestly,honestly, this is the most materialistic birthday ive ever had.
so expensive!
i dont dare t use x.X omgomgomgomgomg really omgomgomgomgomg
my birthdays are spent on a budget of less than $150 in total of all the presents people give me.
this year alone,OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG x.X thanks guys,really.thanks so much [: im reallyreally happy today^^ thanks guys, i love you people [:


P.S: thankyou-list gna be up by tmr :D *HUGS

Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
Its the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

this is THE LIFE :D

using the computer like there's no Chinese MYE tomorrow,
two lil' bottles of bird's nest on my right, (though i dont really support such inhumane food)
bahkwa on my left (:
listening to ne-yo's Because Of You, Maroon 5's Makes Me Wonder, (used to think they were gay but bought their album anyway & lost it) Michael Buble & Nelly Furtado's Quando Quando Quando, & Fergie's Finally :DD

i am hooked on these four songs(:

ah, Mama Day is so nice :D
ive got tickets to Pirates Of The Caribbean 3 with vanessa & terry :D
we're gonna be the second batch in the world t watch Pirates Of The Caribbean :DDDDD

& here comes charkuayteow^^

BE ENVIOUS. xD

I don't regret this life I chose for me.

X On a hiatus.


MYEs are on their way,good luck everyone(:
loads more to come next post,lots of interesting things have happened :D

with lots of Y,
wenxin :D